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praises to ALLAH!

2011-08-20T17:44:00.001+08:00

i really felt blessed!! i just cant stop thanking Allah s.w.t for everything!
i felt my life was better..much much better than last tym..sometimes i will get teary reminscing the past..
ALHAMDULILAH for everything..as i know every single test tt HE gave, there's always a reason behind..

getting gd news in this holy mth, i really felt blessed!
alhamdulilah, im selected to become a company staff at BCS..
the virtue of PATIENCE! :)
a good colleagues, a good working environment, a job tt i enjoyed..wat's more tt i could ask for?
thank you Allah for this gd news!
will convert sometime in Sept, insyaAllah..

its 20th ramadhan now...how time flies..i really cant wait to go terawih with dearest besties the next weekend..:)
gonna celebrate sis's bdae soon at SEGAR RESTAURANT!! the restaurant tt serve the best curry fish head!! mmmm...
alryt till next rent! :)

wen days become hectic!

2011-07-24T00:37:00.000+08:00

wow! its been more a month since the last tyme i've updated this blog! tsk tsk!
aniwae, just feeling so tired ryt at this moment! went to the engagement of dearie's cuz..
and tmr another discussion meet up with the M.A..
saving for a wedding, seriously a headache! house wise,..am nw waiting for our HLE to be approve then will proceed to apply for the BTO flats.
i hope Allah will lead me thru cuz its a tough journey..

work has been quite overwhelming these past few weeks.. i guess its due to short of manpower lately..colleagues leaving one by one.. :(
alot of new duties i have to learn now.
sometym how i wish to be like a new comer...just plainly typing bank accounts! hahah!
just last week i learn a new skill, and this coming week, i will be doing a tougher one, they called it balancing!
i heard from the others tt it can be quite stress at tymes..hopefully im able to manage it slowly..insyaAllah! :)

i so cant wait for next weekend!! will be meeting my dearest girlfriends ayu and naq fr a meet up! now we're thinking of a fun activity to do tgt..and we're still thinking...heh!

ya allah..ramadhan is coming! gosh! hw time flies! it feels scary sometimes..but really looking forward fr the holy mth..it seems tt i will spent my break-fast at work everyday except weekends! haiz!

BYEBYE dearest Ain!

2011-06-12T12:26:00.000+08:00

had a great great tym with my BCS gals yesterday. sometym, just being tgt with them makes my day!
this outing was specially for my colleague named Ain. she has left BCS..its a sad thing but i just wish her all the best on her future ahead...farewell cikgu!! her nick name @ work.. heh..
we went bowling!! i would never say NO to bowling! my favourite! :))

playing hell of fun..and after much attempts of scoring and end up in the longkang, i managed to be the 3rd one! not bad huh? ok, da action! hahah!

we managed to take video of us playing..videos is wit my dear SueSue and will probably upload it once i get it from her! hahaha!

and aft tt dinner at Manhattan...

i somehow dislike Manhattan probably because it served alot of fish/seafood....duh..dah name fish market ryt? ok...watever it is, i would usually get too muak and i feel like throwing up..!

it happen to me again yest wen i was in the bus...theres a point of tym i feel like just get out of the bus and throw up!! lucky ther's some candy with me and it prolly helps me a little..:/

farewell cikgu!! will be missing you always!

cant wait for the next outing with them probably aft raya..

its a really really really really thousand tyms really sad cuz i will be shifting to another office which is at tampines next week.. *sob sob*

yea, im among the chosen ones! sickening! and not all will be shifted! but lucky ther's some colleagues wit me..if not i will be lyk bleargh!

but its really sad tau, the whole ocbc family will nvr be the same again since we are seperated :(

will be ther temporarily for 3 long months! *crying alr*

who say 3 months is nt short!? its a quite a long period to me!!

but oh well..hope everything goes well ther at tamp..

mum is sick, now i get infected by the flu bug alr as im currently *stuffing my nose with tissue* haiz..

sick season now! h1n1 has mutated, the e-coli virus outbreak, gosh this world is ending!

all for the sake of Allah

2011-06-01T01:04:00.000+08:00

this blog seems dead! hahah..
i will usually follow my mood wen comes to blogging..sometimes i do have free time but its juz tt im plain lazy to login to blogger and start composing a post! gosh! how lazy bum! :/

aniwae, since im here..so means im in the mood of blogging! hahaha! ok crap..
life has been pretty fine..alhamdulilah..work was alright..i've had the bestest colleagues i've ever had! thnx to allah..
and seeing the recent fb newsfeed, i cant lie to myself but i felt envy with those who managed to graduate..
seeing my NYP frenz,close frenz,my beloved cousin...in any way, i still felt happy fr them.. i noe its not an easy journey and im proud tt they managed to pull it thru...

sometimes things don’t work out the way you want them to..and i strongly believe ther's always reason behind it..
life just hit me so hard few years back and i gave up on studying..at a point of time, i even gave up with my life..
there are not-so-nice rumours saying that im foolish but hey, be in my shoe at tt period of time and you will know how it feels like...
you are well accomodated by ur parents..getting all the necessary stuffs easily..you dun noe how hard it is to support a family by ur own self!!
but alhamdulilah, i managed to pull through each hardship...all thanks to the almighty..it makes me stronger..

what i want now is just to be close to dear Allah and hoping to fill myself with the knowledge of Islam.
insyaallah..i hope i can take up a private dip course to prepare myself with the challenges ahead in the future as i know singapore is not an easy country to live in...
fiance has been advising me on this and i hope im able to save money on tt aft i get married..

currently saving money fr my future wedding which will takes place probably end of next year or early 2013..
insyaallah...
again, Allah's blessing is all i need...as i know, if my intention is pure, insyaallah, He will guide me thru...

on hiatus!

2011-05-21T01:47:00.000+08:00

hey ppl...
lappie was crashed few weeks ago due to a viurus..:(
luckily fiance knows abt IT stuffs and fixed it! :) but sadly all my pics tt were saved on this comp are gone! thnx eh lappie! urghhh!

its really troublesome to update all the different programmes back and i took like HOURS to do tt...
been wanting to update ALOT but due to this lappie behaving like a bitch, im unable to do so...
will be again soooon...real real soon!!

welcome back ibu!!

2011-04-23T23:47:00.000+08:00

mum just got back from her Batam trip for 2 days along with my aunts and relatives..

she asked me and sis along but all of us had our passport dead! haha!

miss her soo much!

now she's back and the thing that made me go GAGA was to see the stuffs tt she brought home....

LV's bag!! :)

kropok!! dah mcm jualan! haha

jeruk!! my fav! but siap la, i will get sore throat soon! :p

A&W's burger!! finally get to eat those!! :)

A&W's mozza burger! :)

i wanna travel!! i wanna GET OUT of spore for atleast a day or two!

i wan to have those care-free moments! just having fun without worrying abt any single thing..

i wan to have a holiday! realll soon!

insyaallah...fam is planning to have a KL/Sunway Lagoon trip on June....

well..tempting to go with them..well, i'll juz see how's my budget goes on tt mth..hee! :)

awaiting to renew my passport real soon...

pretty tt's it fr today's entry...:)

he means everytg to me!!

2011-04-23T00:04:00.000+08:00

me and fiance turns 3 years, 5 days old nw.. alhamdulilah.
who can i thank to if not Allah, the almighty for making us strong through out the r'ship..
there has been both nice and rocky moments we've been thru but im proud to see where we are now..:)

i've learnt tt a long, happy relationship does not come down to fate, chance, luck or some magical chemistry thingy but it comes down to a good hard work..
fiance and i have gone through just about everything a relationship can experience.. Our relationship had more ups and downs but we sure have enjoyed many wonderful times together..
the point is ALL relationships have their ups and downs..its just how you handle the downs that measures the longevity of the relationship...
we shud also learn to accept the other person, and to also accept yourself too! we are not perfect,anyway..
Love is nt a feeling that stays the same all the time tho...but it grows as we face change and difficulty...
through actions we take, through understanding and through developing the ability to really know who the other is and to really become their friend..
it was a never an easy journey...so, be prepare for a heartache if you wanna jump into a relationship! hahaha!
i can nvr stop thanking Allah fr giving me a real good,nice soulmate..and i really hope our r'ship stays forever. InsyaAllah! :) there are no powerful words to describe the pure joy and bliss i felt knowing it is him that loves me, knowing it is him tt i give my love to...:)
ok, enuf with the jiwang-ness hahaha! :p

anyway, last sun was our 3 years anniversary and we celebrated it with a lunch at Secret Recipe and a movie date! at the end of the day, fiance unwrapped the annvrsary gift tt i bought fr him and he was really happie lyk mad!! he smiled till i cant see his eyes! hahahaha!
and the heart to heart conversation tt we have really make me gembeng fr a moment! hehe

ok, lets layan the photos below..heh!

When I first saw you, I was afraid to talk to you.

When I first talked to you, I was afraid to like you.

When I first liked you, I was afraid to love you.

Now that I love you I'm afraid to lose you.

expect the unexpected! :) belated surprise fr AYU!

2011-04-17T03:50:00.002+08:00

as said, went out with bestie, Ayu and Naq to surprise ayu fr her belated bdae yesterday!
even tho we're 21 days late but, not too bad ryt?? hahaha!
nah, i actually waited fr my pay..i mean better to go out wen you have $$$$ u see.. :)
initial plan was having late lunch at Swensen's, playing bowling at e-hub!

carry on, me and naq met up pretty early to choose fr Ayu's so called mini 'bdae cake' :p
after explaining and chose the cake appropriately..we headed off to meet her..
had a great meal at Swensen's, as always..who wouldnt like the meals in Swensen's?? :p
in the meantime, poor naq had to go out from our table several tyms to confirm the order so as to make everything well-planned.
its funny to see how Naq acted everytime she wants to go out..
'aku nak tel mak aku kejap', 'aku nak gi toilet jap' in my heart i was LOL!!! :)

and so the climax part came...we were waiting for our dessert to be served, along with the "SURPRISED SLICE CAKE"..expecting a good candle with it and probably staffs singing the happy birthday song...haha!! it was really a wild dream tt never had come true!!
this "smart" staff served it just lyk tt..like any normal dessert..without candles,without singing, without a friendly smile on her bl**dy face!! seriously annoying!!!
mengucap sekejap!! haha! it was really a disappointing one..

naq was soooo pissed off and immediately COMPLAINED!! haha! but they deserved it!! who wouldn't be so pissed if what we actually planned doesnt goes out ryt..
things get a lil tensed up for a moment..cuz we were purely DISAPPOINTED!!!
came early to tell, reminding them fr several tyms but yet, they didnt gave a gd service to us..
and after complaining, we are given a 'Firehouse Happy Birthday' as a complementary..this tym with a candle! hahaha! the candle somehw kinda lyk a big deal to us! heh...
and probably due to the candle as well, the ice cream was melting away...
tu pon nak kene complain jgk actually..haha!
but, luckily the sliced cake was nice tho..if not..........:p

finishin all the deserts on our table, i asked Naq to call up the Orchid Bowl @ E-hub to exactly know how many lanes are available and we are quite shocked to know all are full and to make it worse, there were 5 ppl on the waiting list! we were like 'oh shit' :/
didnt have a back up plan yet, we just went to Downtown as planned.
In the bus, again, i called them up and its really a heart-breaking news to know there were 8 on the waiting list at tt period of tym!!! gosh! as expected, weekends!!
its pretty annoying noeing the fact tt we cant even booked for the lanes on weekends! urgh!!
but upon reaching Pasir Ris, we actually had few plans to back it up...
'Bumper Car' and 'X-rider'...due to the long waiting tym for bumper car, we decided to try out the ' X-rider'.
It was fun i tell you!! haha! we were screaming like nobody business in there...even tho i was so sure tt passerby outside the ride can actually hear how nice our scream were!! hahaha!
but it was fun and hillarious too!! :)

i really had so much fun with the whole meet up and i hope to have it next mth too!
next up, naq's bdae! will be planning soon! :)
really glad tt Ayu enjoyed her day and im happy tt she like the gifts tt i bought fr her..:D

and today here comes the 3 years anniversary date with dearest fiance!! :) i so cant wait fr it too!!
woahh my entry super long lyk compo!! ok stop here fr now! :p

what we play is life..

2011-04-15T02:11:00.000+08:00

this will be pretty random cuz im plainly bored ryt now.. :/
granddad's bro juz passed away on the last tue due to cancer tt he had suffered fr few years..:(
received a call from uncle while i was at work and didnt managed to get leave fr tt very exact day and i missed the whole funeral rites :(
Al-fateha to him and may Allah S.W.T bless his soul and grant him the highest place in Jannah.
Ameen.
to Allah we come from and to Him we return..
take an urgent leave the next day to attend for the prayers at my dad's cousin's hse..
seriously..i hardly noe any of them..
probably the last i seen them wen .....hmmmm...i was still a kid??

anyway, i so cant wait for weekends!! :) this blog will be full of pics soon i guess?? haha!
work has been pretty hectic these days...
had a lot of OTs comin in due to the high volume of cheques..
and work has been stress-er and strict-er???
is ther such a word? hahah.
ever since a new temporary CHINA woman officer steps in, she's really getting on my nerves sometymes...
and to be exact, not only me alone, but same goes to my other colleagues...
seriously 'kerek' nak mam!!! urghhh!!
i hope she leaves soon! bleargh!!

i've been working my arse off to collect and simply save money!!
and i hope me and fiance will go thru this together..
its seriously not an easy task but i just hope Allah will lead me thru...
im learning as much as i can to prepare for my marriage-life in the future. mentally and emotionally..
as i gladly know, marriage is not easy..even relationship is never easy...
it requires hardwork and patience..
blessed to have a soulmate who understands..even tho i can behave like some kind of a bitch sometym haha! but his patience and advices tt make me love him even more! :)

i shud just stop here for now. till the next entry!

a moment to cherish

2011-03-20T22:43:00.001+08:00

As said in my earlier post, one of my BCS colleague, Ain Yakeen will be leaving...*sob sob*
and so we went to Seoul Garden, Ngee Ann, immediately aft work to have the farewell celebration fr her..
even tho me and some of my colleagues ther don really agree wit the idea of having Seoul Garden fr our dinner, but since they alr planned it, so we just go wit it...

gd thing i was hungry tt particular tym so it wont be a wasted trip to SG afterall...
but still, i really think its quite pricey ther...:/

spent for approximately 2 hrs and the fd there was not as nice as the one at Marina Sq which i went wit Ayu a few mths ago..
but getting everyone together, camwhoring..the whole dinner experience just feels great!
we'll miss you Ain! :(

done with dinner, we camwhore like nobody business ard Orchard..:)
it will be more great if tt falls on a friday! sheesh!
reached home at 12am! damn exhausted and the SHITest thing is tt i've to work morning shift the following day!!
gosh....i cant barely open my eyes the next morning!!

im quite broke as of now! haha! cuz spent lots of stuffs this mth..

and i guess next mth too...

i so cant wait for next mth!!

lots of great occasions to celebrate..
- besties's belated bdae celebration
- me and fiance 3 years Anniversary
:))

pls come fast, oh APRIL! hehe

they are leaving...

2011-03-15T01:42:00.002+08:00

wanna update this blog but didnt have the time to..

so here it goes...

dearest sis's bdae which fall on the 8 March was celebrated among the family..

its just a small mini celebration...as i haven't get my pay yet during tt period..

so we bought a small cakes and ordered the usual Canadian pizza (pizza lagi!!!) cuz we have exactly no idea wat to order..HAHA!

and on the weekends, we brought sis to Grandlink for KARAOKE!! singing my heart out like nobody business! haha! maybe too comfortable la..

while, mum surprised her with eclair puffs, cream puffs and choc-strawberry tarts...

its really niceee and yum yum yum!!!

so here are the pics during sis's bdae:

on last thu was my colleague's bdae too..went to Mustafa to find her gifts. im still waiting for the pics from her..will upload as soon as i get those!

and to add it on..

1 staff have alr left...and one more will be leaving us too tmr.. :(

we'll be celebrating her last day at seoul garden tmr aft work!!! yayness!!

and, and, and,....on last fri, our OCBC officer, Mr jourdan was having his last day too..and we as a group contributed for the cake..

farewell!!

my dearest handphone have been testing my patience alot these days...and it keeps OFF on itself lyk every 10 mins!!!..

cuz too pissed, i just use dad's china phone for temporary!! haiz..

how pity is that! haha!

there goes my money for next mth...hav to put aside few hundreds to get a new phone!! idiot!!

till next rent..chiao!

Mum turns 44!!!

2011-02-23T03:14:00.002+08:00

wolla!
been bit busy lately with work and didnt have the time to actually blog abt my mum's bdae...
sparing like say, 15 mins to rent this post, shall i??

so..the title above say it all...
mum's bdae that was on 16th Feb went smoothly...
we had a small bdae party for her...
but it was goin a lil rushy in the earlier part as i finished work quite late for that day and i can still vividly recall how crazy me and Ain were...
finding wrappers and essentials like scissors and scotchtape?? haha!
cuz u noe why??
we havent even wrapped her gifts up on that very day...
plus finding a suitable cake...me and sis were all over the place...
but it all went well as planned...

She was really shocked as she did not expect a celebration from us! hehehe
tell me that we're sweet....hahaha!
pictures, pls do the talking can? im tired to type... :p

had Canadian pizza for the family..

my face super nice eh?? ^^

specially for her...

and on the weekend is the day we decide to camwhore

went to SENTOSA to be a tourist for a day...HAHA

exploring sentosa is really a fun-filled experience...with lotssss of camwhoring...

aunt was unable to give free tix as she was unwell and had mc for a week and could not get the tix for us...SAD :(

however, we still have fun...thats the most important part of the day isn't it??

even without spending much in sentosa...

my most favourite pic of the day....:)

even though you will not read this...but just wanna say that ...

I HOPE YOU HAVE FUN MUM!! we love you dearly and again...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM! may u be blessed always!!

muackz!

wher long holidays are spent

2011-02-08T00:17:00.002+08:00

wish to update abt my outing to Sentosa back on the weekends but was just feeling lazy..heh.

tmr will be my afternoon shift so can sleep a lil late...so here i am, blogging :D

as said, went to Sentosa wit dearie..i just wish to walk ard the USS, even tho getting in the USS itself is just a dream...but having to explore the environment there was just awesome...alot of nice attractions for you to take ur camera out and snap! hahah!

and that's wher the idea pops up....to bring beloved mum to Sentosa for her bdae next sun..:)
and a great news for me, my aunt who works at sentosa has free tix on some of the attractions there.. and she's willing to giv the tix to us...great or wat!?? FOC!
to name a few was '4D magix' wic cost $26/tix...yayness!! :)

anyway, back to my outing...

i was really overwhelmed with the USS..by just looking inside the USS from far, it just feel not in singapore..hahah!
and how i wish i had the money...nvm..will save up bit by bit..heh!

after the camwhoring, off to Esplanade...just wanna check out the Euro fun fair that was held near the Marina floating platform...

i didnt ride them erm cuz im broke! hahah! but my legs literally felt weak just seeing all those thrilling rides...to be hung upside down..gosh! but tempting to ride it...:p

will update this blog of mine soon for my mum's bdae outing soon!! :)

holiday mood

2011-02-04T04:43:00.000+08:00

its CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!
and having a loong straight holidays, it just feel so syiok..hahah!
however, the UNshiok thing abt CNY was that most shops are closed!
and its super irritating...
since, its CNY, im looking forward for the Chingay!!! :D

2011 has step to february...and its so freaking fast...i just feel that last week was new year..hahah!
time nowadays..*shook head*

anyway, wanna update on my new job...
have been good so far..alhamdulilah...
met nice colleagues, even tho its a long hour job, but im glad that it all went good, for now?
am still a newcomer and im sure ther's still tons of things for me to learn...
i just hope i can stay to this job as for now, for the sake of money
i admit, its really damn hard to find job nowadays...
and im thankful to be part of BCS...knowing that dad work from the same company, it excites me..hahah!

beloved mum's bdae is ard the corner,
me and sisters are still cracking our brains on what to plan for her on the very day...
but on a lighter note, gifts are finally bought :)
i just cant wait for the day...

oh ya, colleague told me that there was this euro fun fair at esplanade..and i seriously didnt noe that..
seeing her videos, looks fun..wish to be on those thrilling rides (u noe, those 360 degrees turn rides), but noeing that im wearing tudung, i shud think twice...
i just cant imagine how my tudung will be freely flying-flying wen im up there..hahah!

alryt, to be exact, im now still awake at 4 plus in the morning! renting this blog of mine...ish3...
mentang2 holiday..kemain die tak nak tdo..hahah!

k, will chiao now... :)

2011-01-22T01:16:00.001+08:00

chakkk!!!
been quite awhile i've never rent a post here..
so here it comes...
actually just went back home like the past 2 hours...
celebrating fiance's sis's (Ika) bdae at LTA club..
they booked a karaoke room...and its really spacious like hell..very nice!
me and zul however reached there quite late cuz we were crazy looking for Ika's gift...
its a last min thing actually and yeah..so we end up being there a lil late...

im quite shy-shy lah to sing infront of people...HAHA! so i didnt really sing much and i prefer hearing them singing...
even tho ehem, i sing lyke every single time i bath??! haha!
well, will feel comfortable singing with those im quite close with..
and to tell the truth, i enjoy singing...

anyway, tmr another wedding to attend to...
also from fiance's side...
straight after that, will be going to Downtown for a bdae celebration of a cousin of mine...
quite lazy to go cuz i'm not really close to them but mum force me to...
so i cant just say much :(

i cant wait for Auni's bdae...heheh!
ayu, prepare for me red carpet wen i come k? and im sure gonna feel uncomfortable so always be with me k? HAHAH!

gosh..im pretty scared of monday..hope everything will goes smoothly.. :/

its time for new clothes

2011-01-09T06:01:00.000+08:00

yes ah! :) i finally changed my picture skin on my blog...
im just plain lazy to find skins cuz searching for it and editting the html codes will take me lyk forever... -_-
so just a new picture skin will do.. heh:)
all plainly editted by me :D

anyway, i just break down like a few minutes ago...
actually im not sure why i cried...
random thoughts are controlling my mind..
i kept thinking and thinking...
suddenly i felt the burden and before i know it, tears start falling...
and it falls...
and fall...and it didnt stop...

BUT, after the break down, i swear i felt much better...
sometimes, crying does help...
i just do not know whether i can do this..
dear god, i need your help so so much...pls make me strong and let this journey of mine, a smooth one...

pls don start this brand new year with a lot of cries and tears...pls...

a new chapter

2011-01-03T04:31:00.000+08:00

first and foremost, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!
cant get to update this blog of mine during the new year as i was "away" from my lappy since 29th..
as said at my earlier post, went to fiance's house to help out for his sis's wedding...

the wedding went smoothly..alhamdulilah...
seeing the whole process and the wedding held, is a huge experience for me...
now i know its hard to prepare a wedding..hahah!
i just cant imagine how mine will be like in the future...;p
anyway, i have much fun helping them from decorations to the wedding's gifts to the arranging of berkats on the big day...

it was tiring, i admit but it was a joy helping out..

later during the night, i heard the news of the death of a Malaysian actor, Faizal Yusup..

he, who has starred in several M'sian local drama series, died of a heart attack..

he leaves behind his pregnant wife and a 2 year old child...

it happen exactly on a new year..al-fateha to him..

life is really unpredictable indeed and im pretty scared wat's uphold me in the future :/

please be a good year, 2011....

finally...

2010-12-28T03:15:00.002+08:00

finally, the urge of me going to Orchard before new year comes, come true at last..heh..
dearest fiance is having his off day today and so I tell him that i really wanna go to Orchard :)
and so, we went there..
finally step into Orchard...
see those christmas lightings makes me happy...:)
but then, I wanted to take some pics of the christmas trees and lightings but the mood on taking pics is just not there..hahah!
probably Christmas is now over, so I don feel like taking pictures..dah basi pon!
even tho pretty2 christmas trees are right infront of my eyes..gatal kan pompan ni? nak sgt pegi, abeh tak nak take pic..hahahah! :p

but anyway, i just feel happy...
ending 2010 is kinda heavy for me...i dunnoe why...
probably im just too scared to step into a brand new year
2010 has been a great year for me...and its really sad to say byebye..

cheerios...:)

bleargh!

2010-12-26T01:47:00.000+08:00

looking back at all of my archives posts for the last few years...
it really made me laugh..hahah
i see myself growing...and love to see those stages and changes..

this is so random..okay, i better go sleep now! haha!

jingle bell, jingle bell....

2010-12-25T22:10:00.000+08:00

well...here it comes...CHRISTMAS!

i dunnoe why but it feels nice to be in christmas season..hahah!

getting gifts, seeing the colourful lights and decorations like everywhere..

makes me happy and excited :)

this year, i didnt even step into orchard to see the christmas lightings as i didnt have time to go there and also due to the fact that im sick! :(

so i've been a good girl and stay home..hahah!

dad brought christmas gifts from his work and im the first person to unwrap the gifts HAHA!

ya lah, excited wat, getting gifts! :p

just went back from an engagement ceremony of my mum's fren's daughter..

and tmrw, another wedding ceremony to attend to..far away at TEBAN...:(

anyway, fiance's sis is having her wedding on 01.01.2011..

nice date huh? falls on new year and a great date as well..

i'll be going to his house on 30th to help out whenever i can..

one gubahan that im doin for her is still pending...

i promise, i will finish up by mon :)

alryte, to all..MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! :)

how i wish santa do exists..hahah!

lovely weekends spent!

2010-12-24T05:30:00.001+08:00

finally i've got my own internet broadband that i've been longing for...

thanks to my dearest sis...

anyway..wish to update alot but do not have the opportunity to do so..

so let's start with the update.. heh:)

the last weekend have been pretty fun..

first up, was playing bowling with bestie,ayu!

even tho we just had 2 games for ourselves..but we are really indeed having fun..

and that first timer is doing pretty good i must say..ryt ayu? :) hehe

we really had fun..

and ayu lead me to the MBS hotel..now, its my first time goin there..and we tot of goin to the skypark but eventually we're unable to do so..as we're gladly know that we have to pay in order to go up.. and to go up there for FREE that time, is a dream that will never come true..hahaha!

so we just took pic of the awesome singapore view from level 55..jadi lah level 55..ok wat? :p

even tho, we're tired,but we really do have fun..thank you zimin for spicing up my weekend..heheh

and so the day after, me and family made some plans to have a small bdae surprise for Zahid at my house...he really didnt expect it..can see from his reaction..hahah!

the uploading of photos really take forever..haiz..

oh ya, and the next mon, i fall ill again..having high fever...my head feels like crazy..temperature was as high as 38.5..was lying flat on bed the whole day feeling so weak...
cuz worried of my health, mum bring me to the polyclinic..
after checking from the blood test and xray..doc say that my body was normal..there's only bacterial infection in my body which were caused by normal viral disease and with the anti biotic, it will heal slowly..
just see for the next month.if it still persists, have to consult again..
seriously, this on and off fever is really affecting my life..and i tend to get weak easily..
and i've promise myself to eat more fruits and veges from now on...for real! heh!

im recovering now..alhamdulilah,.,.only with the usual flu and cough..
god, pls make me well, im tired to get sick and ill every single week.. :(

2011 is coming!!! ahhhhh!!! cant believe a new year will step in...

Year's end is neither an end nor a beginning but a going on, with all the wisdom that experience can instill in us..

2010-12-13T13:58:00.000+08:00

its hard to believe but its already end of the year..OMG!
almost 1 freaking year has already pass..
to reminisce abt things i had done for 2010, it just feel as though it happened just a few days ago...
sometimes i wonder why do time pass by so quickly..

they say when you become happy you are very less likely to take note of time and so you feel that it passes quickly..
well, maybe its somewhat true..
2010 has been a very unpredictable year for me..
yet with very happy moments to cherish...:)

i really never even thought that i will get engaged to the dearest person this year..
i get good experiences from work and met with nice colleagues..
financial wise is way way better than before, alhamdulilah..

relationship wise, have been ups and downs..
but thru experiences, we've learnt the meaning of deep patience and the importance of communication
i can easily manage my anger now than before...
Assumptions are the termites of relationships, really..most importantly, i guez we need to accept that our partners aren't perfect..

i really thank Allah s.w.t for giving me a soulmate who really understand and im really grateful.
i never thought that a guy who keeps me irritated in MSN 3 years ago is now my fiance..HAHAHA!
the more i avoided him, the more he came and i guess this is called jodoh?

family,
younger sisters have been real busy with their tight working shifts and i realise that we didnt spend much time together this year :(
maybe due to that, we seldom share stuffs like usual and didnt realised that stg actually changed..

anyway, i've just shifted to a new house, hoping to have a new and better life as well..
it has been good so far, and i really thank god that it has been a smooth sailing year..
as said, life is really unpredictable, and im pretty anxious of what's in store next year..
i noe i've to work doubly hard now, need to be financially stable and wants to be close to ALLAH, the almighty...
cuz i believe, with the blessings from HIM, everything will be alright insyaallah..

will cherish every moments that i've had so far..:D

officially engaged! :)

2010-11-30T23:22:00.000+08:00

well..forgot to update my blog..kesian die..
aniwae, alhamdulilah,my engagement ceremony that was held on 27 nov went smoothly..
family members was there all along thru out the ceremony and without them, it will not be a success..
thank you so much people.. :))

the guests that came are unexpected..especially the guy's side..
just afraid that food was not enough but thank god it was..
usual stuff..there will be things that didnt go right as wat was expected but i just learnt it as a lesson..
but overall it was alright..
only god knows how perspired i am with that outfit..haha!

thanks to all who came..

i received good feedbacks for my gubahan..heh! im so proud of myself and kak elly..even tho its our virgin trial for it..
seriously, i still cant believe myself that im already engaged..hah!
next up, have to collect many2 money for the wedding..hahah! in which im unsure how many years it will take..
but insyaallah..ade jodoh ade lah..rezki is in Allah's hand..i hope he will lead me the path easily..

life scares me sometimes..its unpredictable..
again, thanks to all who came..
from besties,colleagues,mum's and sis's frens, everybody...
a big big thank you! :)

let out the kid inside you

2010-11-15T16:55:00.000+08:00

meet up with my dear ayu and naq yesterday...
planning to go bowling..
all ready with my socks..haha! dengan semangat..
end up the stupid safra say its goin to close the bowling centre early..
stupid! there goes my pity socks abandoned in my bag! hahah!

anyway...we went to coffee and toast to have our light dinner..
we tot of goin somewhere to have fun..and so we went to....
ARCADE!!
cant get to play the real bowling...we played the mini bowling anyway..
ok jgk lah kan... hahah!

have fun afterall..hope to hang out again lyk this more often after this..
im trying to upload photos here and it still jam during the uploading...
super annoying..maybe i shud stop using blogger and use wordpress perhaps..

as we step to the month of november

2010-11-04T17:46:00.002+08:00

im jumping for happiness!!! :)
after a few years..i finally got my own lappy...yayy!!
and with this lappy...it will benefit me alot..
an example would be...
uploading photos would be easier for me now..hehe..

talking abt photos..
had a family outing on the last weekend..
mum really wanna see the new marina look..
so we bring her and as usual..took lots of photos...
to be honest, im delighted with the new view of marina..
and with the new project goin on currently, im sure it will make Singapore an awesomely beautiful city..
except with the fact that alot of construction is goin on..
they dig here, there..and as all gladly know, singapore soil is soft..it worries me tho...
i guess they shud consider that too..

anyway..i hate to upload photos here cuz it will take forever..haha!

dearie's birthday is real soon...and tot of making a surprise with his family..
all is nicely planned..hopefully, he will not be asked to work on that day..
if it happens, i need to think of a back up plan :((

without me realising..its already NOVEMBER...Sheesh!!!
dap.dup.dap.dup :x

shit happen

2010-10-26T21:39:00.001+08:00

i can just leave this place if i want..
tis is wat happen wen i explode..
will tend to cry... i just dun wanna elaborate on this cuz it will make my heart pain too..
damn shit manager who call himself a manager wen he dun even noe how to manage! arghhhh!!
noe his mistake at the end of the day and even have the gut to apologise..
so who's the loser now? stupid!

aniwae..something worries me..
i hope allah will help us..she's innocent..
Allah is great..

just to make this blog seems active

2010-10-25T18:31:00.002+08:00

woah..i realised how frequent i update this blog of mine..HAHA!
and to ayu..you will never see that 'hiasi diri indah' everytime you open my blog now..heheh!
happy tak? :p

aniwae, cant wait to get a laptop for myself..cuz i need internet in my life! hahah..
contract gonna end soon..
actually quite sad to leave this job cuz the people here are very nice..colleagues are like my own aunties..:)
i don tink i will get the same work environment in aniwher else i guess..:(

i wish to upload lots of pics here but cant seem to..will do it very soon! :)

till here for now.. tata!

2010-09-07T20:27:00.002+08:00

Hiasi diri indah
Riangkan hati gundah
Bersihkan jiwa... sesuci lebaran
Agar sempurna amalan
Berdoalah insan
Di pagi raya
Moga-moga terampun dosa...

ehem..dont mind me ppl...
hearing the raya songs at work :))

Well..just a few days ahead, comes Syawal..leaving the month of blessing behind :(
Time flies like an arrow.. fasting while working really make my ramadhan pass very fast..
Hmm…I dunnoe..perhaps the time these days are going very very fast..that is one of the sign that the world is coming to an end realllll soon..

Raya preparations are still halfway done..
spring cleaning are not yet done..
and tmr will be the day for shopping spree! wee!!
i cant wait for tmr…!
feels so excited to look for new shoes, new accessories and etc etc..
will be shopping for the raya necessities at geylang..wher else could it be..
even tho having to jostle with the other fellow shoppers during these last days of ramadhan can piss me sometyme.. :p

and talking abt piss...this raya wont be great i guez as on the first day of raya, unlike every other 1st of raya, both of my beloved sisters wont be celebrating as per normal cuz they have to work. Shitness!!
But I cant change the fact but have to accept it..

on a lighter note, i wanna wish all faithful muslims out there selamat hari raya aidilfitri..apologise for all my wrong doings intentionally or unintentionally..
May this meaningful celebration re-awaken the love in our hearts and bring us closer to each other..

leaving for the better

2010-08-03T20:29:00.003+08:00

i gonne move out from my current house very very soon...
probably in dec
and we gonna shift for the better..
and now currently looking for a right house for us..
but will still be living at bedok nth..

hopefully, after the shifting, our life would be much much better and the burden will be much much lighter..
insyaallah...

stress at work is affecting my mood.. :(
thank god im having deployment for 1 week to ease my stress down..
and i really thank god that i got good and nice colleagues that were able to help me along..
i realise my contract is ending real soon..how time flies huh..
and another 2 more mths..i gonna say BYEBYE!
cuz i cant continue with this job..pay is a very important factor to me now..
and with that kind of pay they offer, no benefits, no medical leave or watsoever..that's it!
i cant stick to it.. but hopefully with the help of my working experience ther, i hope it makes me easier to get a good job in the future..

currently at work now..so freaking hungry and thirsty..:((

hi hi bye bye

2010-07-16T19:26:00.002+08:00

planning out to meet my dear nyonya iqah and lisza:))
its been soo long since we 3 met up together..hope it will happen soon!

and looking forward to meet ayu also..
understand tt sch stuffs are piling up..:(
and she must be busy wit tt..

p/s: miss my fellow classmates from NYP too :((
hope i can drop by one day and just saying out a HI to them..

anyway..killing time now while waiting for sis to treat the family..
cant wait to try out the hot n spicy drumlets from KFC..
my stomach is growling like hell..:D

alryt..till here for now..:)) chiao!

when both family comes together......makes me glad

2010-07-12T18:18:00.002+08:00

alhamdulilah...with the help of my fellow family members, it all went well and smoothly..
cooked lyke hell, perspiring lyk shit in the morning..
was pretty scared abt the outcome of my cooking initially as both of my relatives and Zul's relatives will be tasting my cook..and i actually get good remarks from them..heheh! wah... azizah so proud! haha

the date has been confirmed for engagement, which is on the 27th of November 2010.. Hope all went well smoothly... Marriage wise? according to both side, all agreed to depend on both side stability of our financial..:)

my beloved sister are working on tt day and thanks to my cuz, ther's some help in the kitchen to prepare everything.. if its not bcoz of them, i will die, i tell you..
but afterall, im glad it all ended nicely :)

simpang to eat

2010-06-19T11:05:00.002+08:00

Yo yo yo!!
No surfing at work, -_- bored!
I so can’t wait for July..haha! govt money!! Been waiting..
even tho its not as if it’s a big sum of money…but atleast, a few clothes can be bought by that and I want a real shopping! :)

Went out with Ayu at Simpang Bedok last thu…
I’ve went ther once and I tot she will go to the same plc tt I’ve went but it’s a different place..
Apparently, Simpang Bedok is quite a large plc and a lot of varieties of food shops to choose from..
And im alr lyk “wher is tt place tt I went to last tym….”
search and search and I give up cuz I’ve no idea wher is it..
So we ate ther..ate my black pepper beef wit rice..pretty nice but don really like the overtaste of the curry leaves…

ayu ate this meal from opal leaves…my first tyme seeing an opal leaves! Haha! I dunnoe ther’s such leaves used in foods..

find her cute in tis pic..haha

and ya…quite awhile, we will also being alarmed with the “OOOOOO, AAAAAAAAA” from the World Cup viewers..pretty irritating sometymes..HAHA!! and thers this MAT/MINAH REP songs been played and we find it very annoying! Haha! Ooppss…

hope to have a proper meet up with Ayu soon..cuz we spent only for lyk a few hours and by the time we finished eating, some of the shops getting ready to close..:(

Been awhile since I heard from another nyonya of mine :)
nyonya iqah, wher are you?? Manyak senyap ah lu.. heheh..remember to meet up aite? In early July..i’ll ask lis to come along..

bLaH!! bLah!! bLah!!

2010-06-04T21:18:00.002+08:00

its been awhile since the last tyme i update this blog..
dun even have the opportunity to do so :(

luckily..there's new staffs comin in to work.. so ther will be little chances i will be asked to work aft my full tym job.. cuz its really tiring.. :(

waitin for pay now cuz im broke! seriously broke!! haiz.. cant wait to get my first pay from this current job of mine..atleast with tt pay, im able to atleast "breathe" for the next 30 days ahead..hehe! and able to settle alot of major stuffs..

been awhile since the last i meet my dear ayu lavigne.. HAHA! hopefully soon..

If its right for you it will happen

2010-05-12T21:49:00.001+08:00

Some may have known my major update in life currently..
It’s a big step for me.. and syukur alhamdulilah, Allah has lead me all along..

I used to believe that we should be with a person for at least 3 years or more before going to a next step in a relationship lyke engagement and marriage for instance. However, I was lucky and fortunate to find the love of my life..
Experiencing life with him has shattered all of my previous notions of how relationships should work.. I noe in my heart now that there is no time limit on love.
When u want to spend your life with this person and u are truly ready, then that is the time for you..

It really doesn't matter if you have been together 6 weeks, 6 months or even 6 years, you will know if it is right. And to be honest, I don’t really believe in this initially…
Life is unpredictable indeed.

Engagement is simply symbolizes a lifelong commitment to one another.
Allah has been there with me all along wen I really need the “answer”.
As said, me and dearie know each other pretty well and I guess we both know what we want in our future now and we both want to do that together. .:)

The length of our engagement will be slightly longer as I want to achieve wat I want in life first. And if I am not ready for the marriage, people just have to accept it..
Let this engagement of mine be enjoyed as I spent time getting to know each other even more without the responsibilities of being married. Heh!

gonna always plan ahead now and need to think through and be sure of everything that I do..Since most of my families members volunteer themselves to help out, it just make everything a lil easier…alhamdulilah

We have now set an engagement date and are planning it so there will be a review coming up for that in the next few months leading up to the date…

And please pray for me in everything ya?? ur prayers is greatly appreciated!

2010-04-27T09:55:00.002+08:00

Fights,communication problems in relationships are so common that no matter how great u and your beloved get along, u’re bound to run into some miscommunication somewhere along the line...
especially long relationships..we get too comfortable wit them and sometym constantly taking them for granted..
i have this story of a couple..

He is literally everything a girl could ever ask for...a guy with a really really sincere heart..
whenever they get into fights she feel a need to flee, and leave the relationship...in wic she dun even noe why..
maybe she think by running away cud save the problem..
maybe she think by that he wud actually begging on his knees to ask for forgiveness(even sometym,its not literally his faults)
without even stop to think abt his feelings..
She treat him terribly, and hurt him a couple of tymes even tho she genuinely do not intend it.
her expectations of him are high probably due to the hurt tt she had last tym and in most times she feel dissatisfied...and wud naturally welcoming unwanted fights between them..

having lost patience, he finally grant her never-ending wish for seperation..
and only after tt incident, she feel the hurt, she feel the lost, she feel the guilt...she's beginning to appreciate him more, and has gone an extra miles to win his heart again..
even tho it takes quite awhile, but it seems that she's getting his love again now
and its amazing how much patience he has all these while and still accept her the way she is...

its true wen ppl say 'we tend to appreciate things more after they are gone'..

so, don take the people you love for granted cuz if they leave, it would just tear you apart:)

Raining season = FLU season

2010-04-23T18:39:00.003+08:00

gosh..the raining season has made me sick and sick and again, sick...
now flu is accompanying me..
luckily the fever is controllable and im able to push myself to go to work..
gd job azizah! :)
initially, i cant even get up, but alhamdulilah, im here nw at work..
raining so heavily here..nice to sleep:)

oh ya, gt this msg..but cant really noe whether its reliable or not..
this is wat the msg says:
Be careful from the 20th to 28th of this mth.There is possibility of an ACID RAIN.The dark circle appeared around the moon on the 17th of last mth and this is an indication of Acid Rain.It rains normally but it may cause skin cancer if you expose yourself to it...........

i guess we shall just see any news related to this if it really happens..

now, im feeling really giddy..i wanna go back and rest :'(
i hope the time goes by fast!!

another update from me,
finally i got a secured job.!! wee!! alhamdulilah!:)
and that piece of gd news comes unexpectedly fast..
will be starting on this 3 May.. as an Assistant library officer..
i love the working hours and the location too..
gonna miss working in OPSG..cuz its a rather easy job for me..:(
however, i will still volunteer myself to work if they urgently need staffs and wen it goes to the right timing..

a good saturday outing!!

2010-04-12T10:03:00.008+08:00

at work on this monday bluesss...:(
but im happy i get the opportunity to earn! heh!

oh well need to talk alot on my saturday outing with bestie ayu!
had alot of fun..
lots of funny memories to bring back..haha!
even tho im lyk so worn off but it was a great day after all...
met up with her..and it was a pity of her to carry tt gift bag all along..haha!
and its not light..sorry bluetin..!
and we head to vivo to have our lunch..
im kinda surprised ther's not much crowds yet at tt moment
even tho its on a saturday!

ate chicken fried rice.its kinda dry but was nice..see tt gravy on the lower part of the pic?? i spilled it cuz of my slengerness to put it near the end of the table..haha! and the cleaner giv an unhappy look wen cleaning:(( ape je...

after being full..we head to skyride...and for the 1st time i tried to board the sentosa express train..dunnoe wat is it called..sky train eh? dunnoe la..
realised its easier to go sentosa now..
had a 2 way ride for skyride and im lyk so looking forward wen my poor ayu was feeling super duper nervous..i understand..tht's how i feel last tyme..:)
the queue was full of tourists and we seems lyke one too:) haha!

it seems so funny to standby at the sign and as soon as the ride comes, the person ther makes us so panicked..
legs apart lah,wat lah..haha!
and the seat wen it comes to us,can be quite painful..cuz of the impact..
and tt point of time ayu was so so so so super nervous and she's saying a few prayers to calm herself down..and i cant stand but to laugh..:D i noe im bad..heh..
but i've to admin the gg up route was a lil scary..but as soon as we get to the top..ayu was abit calm..heh..
the view was nice

its scary to take pic up here..ther's a possibility my hp cud drop..haha!

i had a gd laugh during the alighting moments..haha! only both of us noe how "cute" we were wen alighting..esp my dear ayu! haha! whenever i think back, i wud burst into laughter!!
but really, the staffs ther make it worst..and dun call it a 2 way ride if we need to trouble ourself to get down on a 1st way..and get back again on the 2nd one..wen the thing can make a u-turn!dumb! :$

and aft the ride we heading all the way to Lau Pa Sat..and here comes our walking marathon!
from Clarke Quay we walked to LauPaSat!
just to satisfy our satay cravings!:)

and ayu cant seems to pull out the satay...she tries...

and tries.........

still trying.......

and finally she did it!! haha!

if ur eyes are sharp enuf , u'll see a band performing up ther..:)

slenger bacin ryt? i noe..haha!

cam whoring at the toilet is a must for us! haha!

had a lot of fun at the end of the day!!:))

2010-04-09T20:16:00.002+08:00

just got my menses...
Argh!!!
it came at a wrong time!
and now im having cramps since morning..
hate it lah..
hopefully tmr i'll be fine..
cuz i wan to hav fun...not having fun enduring the cramps!
urghhh!!

Hurray!

2010-04-05T20:20:00.002+08:00

Weeee!!! pay is in my hands!!! :) yayness!!
thank god my finance prepare it fast..:)
and i so cant wait for saturday..!!
meeting my dear Ayu Asmarak..:)
and hoping the weather is nice to us on tt day cuz i really wanna ride on that skyride..

meet u soon Zaimon!! :) hahah..

p/s: im craving for satay la...!!

2010-03-29T23:19:00.000+08:00

And here comes the bdae of my another bestie of mine..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NYONYA SYAFIQAH!!! hehe
Its been awhile since we last met..
We've been lyk busy business woman eh??
Aniwae, wanna wish you a very very very HAPPY AND JOYOUS BIRTHDAY!!

You've turn 21 now..and pls accept this..im still OLDER than you..hahah! bluek!
thanks for being ther with me..thanks for hearing my stories..you've been a good listener and i thank u so much!!
seriously i dun expect tt we'll be this close wen i 1st saw u in Bazaar..HAHA!
We're from total strangers to close buds!! Wit only 1 and half year,we've bonded so much!!
thank you nyonya!:)

Hope tt ur day will be filled wit happiness always and be blessed by Allah s.w.t..
esp in this special day..
even you've to work on this day wic is sucks,i noe..:)
ut hopefully you have a good one aite..
We'll meet soon k nyonya bacin? Heheh..
wa manyak miss lu la nyonya!! Manyak manyak!!
and yeah hope our plan to meet wit Lis n Lina really happen this tyme

Myspace Happy Birthday Comments

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

2010-03-25T20:48:00.004+08:00

alright..for a few hours...my dear bestie, AreyouAyu(heh) gonna be officially 22 years !!
ayu..:) if u happen to see this..just wanna wish you A very Happy BDAE!!!!
Think this is the 8th year that i have wished you and im sure there are more years ahead..

Life is getting challenging as we grow older..life can be unfair sometyms..
yeah its hard..
but ther's always a blessing at the end of the day:)
and aft overcoming all that challenges, it makes you stronger...
that's stg u can be proud of..:D

and you have been a very great bestie..thanks for tt and i hope it will stays forever..
its a sad thing tt u're down wit fever now...:(
get well soon k? drink plenty n plenty of water, dun forget medication too:)
hopefully, tmrw u'll be much better and can atleast enjoy on ur big day..

and once we get our pay...we meet up aite??
i think we hav some plans by now..satay,vivo,sentosa beaches ...hmmm...
we'll plan again..:D

and yeah, again, HAPPY 22TH BIRTHDAY!!!!
MUACKS!!

p/s:and for a few more days, another bestie of mine turn 21...heh

Myspace Happy Birthday Graphics

hating my body

2010-03-22T19:49:00.002+08:00

its pretty annoying to know that u gonna get sick lyk twice every mth...
i dun noe wats wrong wit my body..
even preventing myself from the rain and wat so ever...i will still,unfortunately, get sick!!
Is there something that could be causing my immune system to be weaker than usual?
i hope somebody cud explain this..hahaha!

and dragging myself to work with this condition is a killer to me..
and now, im feeling lyke vomitting..

if tmr im still not well, i've to ask for a replacement..
seriously, i HATE to trouble anyone wen im sick..

HAPPY BDAE DEARIE!!!

2010-03-11T21:45:00.005+08:00

its my sis's 20th bdae last mon..
went to buy the gifts,cakes decorations all in a day..
its kinda rush everything..
but overall it turn out well:)

our gifts tt we bought and decorate ourself:)

i want orange juice!!!

2010-03-04T21:47:00.002+08:00

just recovering from my stupid fever..
hate it wen this immune system of mine goin hay-wire..
serve u ryt azizah..
drink coke some more..hahah!
but MAYBE its due to my mom..
cuz she had the same fever a week ago..(trying to win my coke..haha!)

but im getting alryt now..
FINALLY i got my pay..!! wee!!!
didnt expect it will come this fast but alhamdulilah..
hav to do alot of shopping, paying ups, and my dear2 bestie's bdae is coming...
so...have to search the whole spore for gifts heh!

alryt..gonna do my rounds..see ya!
and to Ayu, happy working tmrw! :p

Chingay!! Chingay!!

2010-02-23T19:39:00.008+08:00

hey readers...
at work again...:)
its been 3 weeks working here..and so far, im lovin my job..:D
except for those who prolong their event and end up, i get home late..:(
went for Chingay 2010 festival last Sat..
its really a great festival and they are very colorful
v nice item they gt ther..just let the pic do the talking aite..

this is my fav!! nicee!!

2010-02-18T21:13:00.005+08:00

you turn older dear..

Weeee!!! finally im done wit my blogskin..

hahah..

now i feel more better looking at my blog..:)

i cant be bothered with the font color etc etc..but as long as ther's main pic,im happy!!

love the pic tho..:D and offcourse the colors are amazing..

well..last 2 days was my beloved mum's bdae..
she just turn 43..hope she will be filled wit blessing from Allah s.w.t..always..
and i love her so much..!!

she has been my strength all these while..

me and sis as well as Zul n Zahid have planned for the celebrations earlier..

and thanks to them who contribute for the Karaoke and make the celebration happen for her..

alryt readers..gtg now..time to lock these doors in this work building of mine..

2010-02-05T21:47:00.002+08:00

blogging at work's plc..heh!
so far, being a receptionist at "One People" has been good..:)
thanks to my bff, ayu who offer me this job..
thanks eh zimin..haha!
well..this is just a part time job..still finding a stable full time job at the moment..
but noeing tt im earning sometg and nt rotting at home please me somehow..heh!

alryt..end here for now..
chiao!

2010-01-18T17:18:00.002+08:00

ok..i realise my blog is not accompanied wit the skin tt it used to be..
and i dun even noe why..
dont even have a time to look at this poor blog of mine..
dont worry my dear bloggy..u will get a new fresh skin soon aitee.. haha!

somehow 2010 getting better..
starting to look forward for it now
mayb simply bcoz few probs getting abit more settled now..
i hope tt i'll be blessed with everytg good this year..
dad's getting better wit medication
just hav to pay attention on the advises from the senior doc on the 19th..

gettin a new job soon wit a much better pay..alhamdulilah..
somehow,experiences from the dental helps me though.. double yayness!!

too busy wit life till sometimes i dont realise tt im getting older now
yeah, age is just a number..but the fact tt ppl intepret it differently scares me sometimes..
noe zul for almost 2 years now..
and family started to keep blabbering abt a more official relationship..
easy said, engagement..
i dunnoe whether im ready or not..
i have a huge, heightened responsibility ahead of me..and im not even done wit that
wen ppl keep talking abt "it"..sometyms, i feel lyke screaming..
cuz its not as easy as said..and its not simply just collectin money and do "it"..
its more to just that..
but deep within me, i noe he is the one for me..i admit i do wanna take a step forward in our relationship cuz i noe he is the one..but its just due to some reasons tt i've to consider abt it..
maybe bcoz im the eldest child in the family??

no one told me about the eldest child being the one making all the decisions..and i hate making decisions if i were to frank..
i wasn't prepared for such a huge responsibility..
i grew up independent, learning how to fix everything around the house and handle all things since young, almost the "man" of the house, but yet i can't do the budget for my family..
financial contributions aren't ever enough..
and i am rambling i noe..haha!
i just want to get everything out of my system, and i don't want to speak to anyone anymore about all this cuz simply, listening to me spout all this nonsense and breaking down everyday is nt goin to do any good to me..

i get frustrated, upset, and of course i get impatient with a lot of things easily now and they all say that i have to be strong, because i am the eldest child..
but no one ever realised, this eldest child has a side that needs to crumble before she can build her heart stronger?

thanks to my fellow besties,dearie and most importantly, Allah s.w.t who made me stronger all along..
and i'm beginning to face life stronger now..

2009-12-28T19:26:00.003+08:00

2009 is ending...
im not pretty sure whether to be happy abt it or not..
going to a brand new year scares me sometymes..
ya..we don really noe wat's in store for us next year..
2009 has been a watershed for me..
its been a very very very hurtful,disappointing,hardest journey in my entire life if i were to be frank..
been tested ALOT from the almighty..
and alhamdulilah..i managed to pull it thru wit all the test HE gave..
felt like giving up for umpthteen times..
either way, Allah is ther wen i feel at my lowest point..thank u god..
its just been crazy and challenging too..

as 2010 draws near,i just hope for the best..
hopefully,it will be much much better
which can atleast put a smile on my face wic i've lost
and i dun wanna go to that shitful phase again...pls....
tt's all i can hope for..

happy 2010 everyone!!:D
may it be a frutful year for all of us..

2009-12-04T14:20:00.003+08:00

St Andrew Dental Surgeon assistant

having working hrs from 8.30am to 7 pm is damn tiring!!
learning the basic of dental line was hard..
and from absolutely with zero knowledge..its hard to get the hang of it..

and yeah..all my dear dental surgeon assistants are all mly females!!
and all of them are young..
its not tt i hate working with malays..
but sometimes, they all prove me right..
ther's so much political gg on ard ther tt sometimes i just feel lyke going out..
nvm..i noe i wont be long ther..
just take tt as an experience..
atleast,it benefits me somehow wen i went for work in the future..

miss my besties so much!!

2009-11-26T09:35:00.003+08:00

Each success only buys an admission ticket to a more difficult problem

well..yesterday went for 3 interviews..
been out as early as 9 plus in the morning..
first up..was an interview at 11 am.
i was only told its a clinic assistant job..
went ther but i was wrong..its actually a big dental clinic!!
did my very best even tho i feel lyk gg home tt particular tym..
and aft tt, went for other 2 interviews..
the last one was at tamp as an assist tchr..reached ther bit late as its far from my previous interview..
its just a part time job from 3pm to 7pm..
still waiting for the call..
i really looking forward for the working experience as an asst tcher, seriously..
just see the outcome in a week or two..

aft went for the interview in the later evening, the dental staff called me saying tt im shortlisted for the job!!! wee!!! alhamdulilah..
nvr thought it will be tt fast to get shortlisted..heh!
start on the 1st of dec..
if ther are other job opportunities wic i think is more worth it, i have to make a consideration again..

been coughing lyke a dog these few days..
hurts so bad
and ive to get ready a bottle of plain water in my bag to get myself prepared if the continuous cough strikes..
if i didnt do tt..some eyes will be directed to me and even worse,stare at me lyke as if they havent seen a human being cough!! hahah..

alryt..end here for now..wanna rest well..

2009-11-21T15:42:00.002+08:00

a shooting experience

just to get fast extra income..i followed my kak elly to go shooting for the first ever time in my life..HAHA!!
its kinda nervous at first..
but after getting along wit the ppl..
its fun afterall..:)
shooting experience was nice!! but it was damn tiring..
it started at 7pm and finishes till 12am!!
my role is a reporter, having a conference meeting with a superior regards to sensor narcotic agency..
its a tamil movie..
i wonder how i look like on screen :D
so...
im given the role with no dialogues!!!
and just sit ther pretending to write in a notebook..
if somebody were to see wat i wrote in tt notebook..they will think im crazy..haha!!
all full of bullshit and so damn random..
just for the sake of writing.. :)

met sani hussein:D
p/s: he's kinda friendly too..he talked to my mum during the breaks hahas!

oh well..enuf of that..i will start on my training for this new job of mine this tues..
hopefully..all went well :)

2009-11-13T22:43:00.002+08:00

busy bee

have been job hunting these few days..
online jobs helps alot..:)
and i'll be starting my new job this week..syukur alhamdulilah..

mon, will go back to kkh to noe the outcome:)
pls allah..i hope its a good news from them..

and ya. hari raye haji is really ard the corner..
and i dun even realise that its on tis mth..gosh!

2009-11-09T11:36:00.002+08:00

i really hope that everything goes well for me...
i really beg u dear allah..
let the burden lighter..

down wit fever the day b4 yest..
and had difficulty breathing again..
cuz of curiosity of my condition,
and so i went to ttsh..
had check ups with ECG,CXR,UTA..
alhamdulilah..all was ok..
doc said tt due to severe anxiety, metabolic acidosis occurs in my body that causes imbalances in my gas exchanges.
probably that is due to the rapid deep breathing too..
but i really thank god that my lungs are ok.. :)

p/s: i miss my nyonya!! wen can u meet eh nyonya?
anything beep my hp aite??

MISS my nyp gerl frenz so damnn much!!

2009-10-26T18:57:00.003+08:00

we are the actors

breathing has been difficult for me these few weeks and it scares me
sometimes i tell myself to seek medical attention but it has nvr happen..
due to hectic life and i dont pretty care abt my body sometym..

alryt nvm, put tt aside..

i believe some may have seen my disappearance..
im sure u will noe the reason one day..
but just to tell all of you tt im fine
if i tell it here, this entry will be lyke a novel
i really miss each and all of you.. :(

sometimes i feel this world is unfair..
but wat to do..this world is just a stage for us..
if u noe wat i mean..

waiting for my another nyonya to have the meet up..
and all the best fr ur exam aite:)

and my nyp gerlfrenz!! miss u loadsZ!

2009-10-18T14:02:00.002+08:00

im seriously torn...

i can sit alone doing nothing and to think abt this for hours and hours but still, with no final decision from me..urghhh! *shook head*

had a dream last nyt..
isnt tt a sign from the almighty??

its not as easy as said..

2009-10-10T11:53:00.002+08:00

dearie was down with mild fever initially but it get worse gradually and finally shoots at 38.8 degrees celcius on 8th oct.
plus his chest pain that makes him difficult to breathe..he vomitted alot..
i guess the infection has got into his lungs somehow..
dear allah, pls make him strong..
and pls get him well as soon as possible dear allah..
cuz seeing him gasping for oxygen really kills me..
i hope he will win his battle towards that virus..:'(
i dun want to lose someone precious lyk him..

2009-10-07T22:41:00.002+08:00

a year older

finally im 21..
it has been a crazy ride fr me this year..
i've to admit the year has been full of tears,cries,hurt and pain..
but allah has been ther fr me..
and i managed to get it thru with lots of patience..with every single test that HE gave...
i've been seeing it coming one and another..its just painful..

exactly at 12am, my kak elly and beloved family surprised me..wit a cake!!
even im nt in the mood to celebrate or to be happy at tt period of tyme,
i managed to get a smile on my face, ATLEAST..
but they really make my day..
if not bcoz of them, i wouldnt hav been smiling
ppl's flaws can really hurt you deeply sometimes
well..yeah, its true..accepting the fact tt nobody is perfect is hard sometymes..
just dun let my heart rip into pieces, cuz wen tt happens, i cant imagine how's the outcome gonna be like..
well...
let bygones be bygones..

cuz you dun noe how much you mean in my life and how much love i have for u..

enuf said aite..
and btw, thanks for all the bdae wishes, gift from all of my loved ones..i really appreciate it alot!!!

2009-10-03T01:53:00.002+08:00

downpour

it has been a down turn coaster fr me..
i just need to let everything out in this very entry..
a couple of updates..

Ayu's aunt has been v.v nice to me and my fam..
if it's nt bcoz of her, we wont get a place to live in..
but due to certain circumstances, i've to leave the hse..
for the better..
now staying at my aunt's hse at bkt pjg..
its really way far end..
dislikes it sometimes..
but have to endure it..

well..it's been awhile since the last time i heard abt my dad..
i dunnoe how he is doin..
to be honest, i really hate wen ppl asking me wher he is living now cuz by then, i will start to hate myself...
i dunnoe y..
u think im a heartless person??
absolutely NO!!
and that is why i really felt guilty sometimes..
and noeing tt i have an atleast a shelter to stay in while my dad,DONT, it kills me somehow..
even tho hugely, he is the main cause for EVERYTHING..
i hope he is well ther..wherever he is..

and most importantly,
hoping that after all these incident, it will give a "wake-up" call for him to repent..

dear allah, pls show me ur blessings aft all these hardships tt im facing thru..
pls show me ur light,dear almighty..
cuz as a normal human being, im nt strong actually to face this..

turning a year older real soon..
and how 1 year pass so fast..
and i really prayed to u, Allah..in tt special day of mine, YOU will make my day a blessed one..
insyaallah..

and to my dear Ayu, hope ur mum is having a huge recovery..
i noe ur heart really sunk..seeing ur own mum in tt kind of condition..
esp in the initial stage..
if it were me, i cant stop crying..
but yeah, despite all that, im glad she managed to get it thru..
and with Allah's blessing, she's doin better than previously..

been having bad dreams quite awhile..
it scares me :(

2009-09-06T16:55:00.003+08:00

freakingly pissed!!!!!!
im hurt..
deeply hurt..
i hope his words will haunt him..

enuf said..
im terribly tired and sick!!

i wonder who has felt been in my shoe..
i want their help..cuz im really clueless and hopeless...

2009-09-03T01:11:00.006+08:00

how i wish i was a baby wher ther's no worries

hey my abandoned blog..hah!
it feels lyke years since i last blog..
been very difficult to use the net nowadays..
i really2 need a laptop..
i wonder wher can i get it for a cheaper value..haiz..
perhaps i have to look ard at sungei road..hahah!

exams are finally done..did my best..just hoping for a pass will do..gonna prayed hard tt i can proceed to the next sem..
have started my attachment at CGH since mon..BOOO!!
it really seems unfair..while the others are having their vacation holidays, OUR holidays are used for attachments..:(
they shud do it at our sch days instead..
and i am really thinking my future now..
i really don want to work in a hosp for 3 years..
i mean, wat i really wants in lyf..
wat i want in life is just to be close with allah...help my family and just do something wic im happy with it
i really hav to do something for my future before i regretted in the later future.cuz at the end of the day, its abt whether im happy or not..

dad is creating his super nuisance again!!! arghhh!!! i wonder when can he come into his senses..for goodness sake!!
he argued with the owner abt the rent money all and still have the gut to say tt he is the one who's been paying all these while, not his children..
and we are nothing but just school childrens...urghhhh!!! freaking irritating!!
well, if he don appreciate me who has been helping him all these while,then fine, i will stop helping him,since he say to the whole world im the cause for all his troubles!!

i really cant believe him!! i dunnoe hw much my tears are wasted juz bcoz of him..
as a daughter who's trying to be a gd one to help my fam, im really2 hurt!!
and we're kicked from the hse..face it!! im juz tired of it!!
and if ure gd enuf, go out ther and find one hse for ur family to stay!!!
astaghfirullah..i noe im being harsh but he really test my patience..

well..i noe these challenges are ther to make me a stronger person..and im thankful and grateful tt im being tested by the almighty in this great mth...
its just sometimes,its not as easy said..be in my position, then u will noe..

however,thank u allah for giving a job for dearie and also my sis..they really helped me financially..
love you both!! :D
its the holy mth..and deeds will be double or triple rewarded..so, i take it as a reward if im able to overcome these challenges with lots and lots of patience..insyaallah..AMIN..

alryt..this entry will be full of pictures..haha!
and in this one month ther's been alot of updates..
my niece's bdae,
my dear nyp closefren,zimah's bdae,
my dear cutie but naughty Ain's bdae:p,
ndp wit dearie and
my last picture taking with my fellow classmates and beloved skills tchr to marked the end of semester..
took the pictures but cant update it lyk i used to..

let the pictures do the talking aite..

durin my niece,iffah's bdae

ndp o9 with dearie :)

during ain's bdae :)

during my dear close fren,zimah's bdae

and these are some of the pics taken during our last paper for this sem:

and met ayu lavigne for meet up to break-fast at Popeye

and after tt we camwhore :P

and i miss my another nyonya..when can i meet her eh..heh :)

2009-07-27T15:16:00.002+08:00

never-ending

it has been a vey damn busy week for the past few weeks..
haiz...
with 2 presentations..re-assessment for the clinical skills..cuz i failed fr the 1st attempt..:(
sometimes,i wonder..am i really a failure?? :'(

with family prob getting more complicated..
mum not able to come home fr a long period of tyme..cuz have to take care of my dearest niece cuz aunt has been hospitalised and she needs a serious care..
and my normal dad's problem..arghhh!!!
and i need 300 every mth..if not, i seriously dunnoe wher me and my siblings have to stay..
its damn frustrating..
i got no choice of getting a job fr myself..i cant jus sit there and wait fr my sis or my mum to work..
cuz relying on the sponsorship money isnt gg to be enough fr me and my family..

Allah has gave a very big test fr me..
and tt i have to accept it willingly..
as wat zul have been keep telling me..
ther's a reason behind all these..and that i have to stay and hold on..

i just feel like crying..
infact i cried yesterday,even the day before yesterday..
its just a way fr me to feel much better..

its just too much fr me!!!
its just never ending..

on a lighter note..
dearie has surprised me with 2 ndp tickets fr the 9 aug..
and he hav to pay fr it..silly him!!
but thanks dear..u shudnt hav..
its been almost 10 years since the last time i was really part of the viewers to watch NDP..heh..
i want the bags..!! haha..thanks so much dear..

i miss my besties so much.. i hope u both are free this and the following week..:)
looking forward to meet u my dear ayu and iqah..muackss!!!

2009-06-26T22:15:00.001+08:00

they will be remembered always

early morning tdae..i was shocked by all the news tt was received..

1st:
the H1N1 currently hit 315 cases..
i was like "WAT??!!!"
the MOH confirmed 95 new cases in which 25 are local infections while 22 are the imported ones..
and another 48 are still investigated..
and guess wat..
ther's one new case from NYP too..

i bet it will keep increasing HUGELY as days goes by..
i hope singapore will really DO something to combat this disease..

2nd:

the pop star Michael Jackson has already passed away at his age of 50 just now morning..
the shocking death of him really surprised me and surely,the world too..
he was taken away by God at a really young age..
and the fact that he finally found God in Allah and changed his religion to Islam not long tyme ago really relief me..

even though he was full with tabloids,scandals etc etc.. but i guez the incredible and unique talent tt he has will be remembered by many of his millions and millions of his fans forever..

That unforgettable King of POP will be missed forever by us..
and may he rest in peace..

3rd:

the Charlie's Angel star, Farah Fawcett also passes away earlier today after a long and brave battle with cancer..
even though i didnt actually noe her..but according to my mum, she was once popular and have acted a few great movies..and indeed she is a great actress ..
see?? even my mum noes her..:)

well..may she rest in peace too..

2009-06-25T00:42:00.003+08:00

a great relief

well..
just watched the news..
and after getting a double confirmation from my nyp email..
yes..

i'll be having a home-based learning from 29 june to 5 july..
so another week hol extension for the nyp students..
great or wat??? hee!

so will use that xtra tyme to study and revise cuz didnt manage to revise during that freaking short hols..
with all the many2 projects...tell me how am i suppose to really sit down and revise?
some projects are somehow done..thank god..
only left with the edits here and ther..and we're considered done..
projects really stressing me..urghh!!!

and i want a meet up with my fellow besties..
yea..and lisza too..:) i hope we three can meet up again..its been long since we 3 are out tgther..
and zimah too :) hope we can study tgther..

2009-06-16T23:04:00.003+08:00

me and zul discovered something very weird on our anniversary date..

17th

i was born on 7/10
he was born on 6/11

add up together: 7+10+6+11= 34
34 divide by 2 (cuz duhh..we are 2 person)= 17 <=

and after so long..we found out that..heh

the day comes again..love him more as days goes by..

2009-06-15T23:18:00.001+08:00

life is better than yesterday..alhamdulilah..
allah is ther with us..i really thank him..
and i noe HE just wanna gave tests to us..
to see how strong we are..
but yea..as i said, im glad tt we managed to make it thru..
thanx dear, for sacrificing ur time,sleep and effort to help my family..
i think i cant re-pay on wat ever things tt u've done...

having my 2 weeks hol now..
i dun really regard it as HOLIDAY,to be honest..
cuz i need to study for my upcoming tests..
finish up my never-ending projects..
its like wat...3,4 projects to finish..??
haiz...
i can predict..wen sch re-open,i will be very busy..
not forgetting...STRESS!!!
hope i can managed it all thru..

2009-06-08T19:09:00.001+08:00

nobody's home

i just cnt understand why people just cant shut their mouth up..
only with tt slightest mistake..they make a big fuss abt it..
i wanna ESCAPE!!
i wanna scream!!
i wanna cry as much as i can!!
i wanna just be with allah!!
living in this world sometimes make me weak..very very weak...
but i noe i HAVE to be strong..in order to live..
behind these smiles of mine..ther's a BIG sadness,a BIG pain and a BIG burden..
and that only HIM who noes..

went to ECP pit fr my sec mate,nadiah 21st bdae yestd..wit ayu..
the BTSS clan are invited..
and yeah..as wat ayu said..we are awkward ther..
like really2 awkward la..cuz we dun really are close to them and i feel tt i don belong ther..haha!!
but they are nice ppl..:)
aniwae, nice to meet them after so long..
alot of changes can be seen also..hah!

after tt,we went to esplanade to hav our mini dinner..
and just hang ard ther and we also surveyed the fullerton hotel too..haha!
its a jaw-dropping experience..i really get blown away by how elegant the hotel is..haiz!!
and we cam-whore lah as usual..haha..

thanks eh wak fr putting my mind aside from all these probs tt im facing at tt period of tym..

and to my dear iqah, thanks fr hearing all my stories and ur concern..i really appreciate it alot!!

i really am LUCKY to have damn great besties lyke both of you..
even my own relative don even bother..
i love you!!! heh!

and to my dear Ajul haha..thnx eh dear..for all ur help..without u, i dunnoe how difficult it would be..
thanx fr being ther and hear my cries..my stories..just everything..

its a pretty long post..but i just need to let it out..im done..

2009-06-05T23:46:00.008+08:00

gdbyee ward 34

another week is finally over..

and here come the end of my obstetrics posting...

it has been a wonderful experience ther..

seeing newborns..

nursing post natal moms..and the prenatal ones too..

even though its a short period in ther..but its a great learning experience!!

these are some pics tt were taken just now.. :)

im a mother-to-be :P

yanfang and me with the cuties

muackzz!!!

come baby drink...

my ward 34 mates!! :)

and another week more to endure before i got my official holidays
..here i come ward 44...
i wonder how's gynae ward is..

2009-06-05T01:42:00.002+08:00

having a tough life lately..
been stressing up alot..
crying is my bestfriend now..
break down for umpteenth times..
sometimes i feel lyke screaming..
cuz its just too much fr me to bare..
way way too much..

dear allah..pls make me strong!!
i noe this is just tests from u,god..

i will try to endure it as much as i can..
i dunnoe y some ppl are dumb..like really2 dumb and didnt even take a sec to think..
annoying and irritating..

stop here.

2009-05-30T12:35:00.019+08:00

memories:)

YO!!!
finally gt to blog now..saddening!!

wanted to blog alot yest but cant b able to..

so..

yesterday was my last day for my paediatric ward 55!!

gonna miss the patients ther hell alot!! esp my cute nafie!!

get well soon ok?? :))

and ya, we startd to camwhore

since its the last day..

well..let the pics do the talking..

me and amanda

my cute little nafie

thnx to syura who design this big card:) tis will be given to the ward..

mdm sim..my dearest CI

my fellow posting mates:)

and we end the day wit a smile:D

2009-05-22T00:33:00.001+08:00

u innocence thing

im lovin my paediatric ward...
cute little infants just melt my heart every single tyme wen i looked at them..haiz..
how i wish i cud take a picture of them and juz show u all..
u would definitely agree wit me..

and entertaining to kids are fun..:D
but,i do admit, it cud be boring sometime cuz we got almost NOTHING beneficial to do..due to the fact tt we hardly learn lots of skills ther cuz we cant able to perform it as a student..
and compared to the normal hosp..its really different ther la..
i guez its bcoz its a specialised hosp...
they are really particular!!

but watever it is...
i love PAEDS!!! haha!

p/s: payday faster come can or not???!!

attachment

2009-05-16T21:59:00.002+08:00

it goes without me realising

time flies lyke crazy..
and now 4 weeks has alrdy pass..
starting next week, will be gg fr attachment at KKH..
2 weeks in paeds ward
1 week in obstetric ward
1 week in gynae ward
will start the week wit a morning shift ..sheesh!! :(
will spent my weekends wit a reading up of my childbearing module..
im pretty excited abt the posting..
lil nervous and anxious too..
are the staffs ther nice?? esp to students,lyke me??
will it be hard to nurse the patients ther??
will i be lyke a blur ding dong ther??
will my CI [clinical instructor] nice??
all these question keeps bugging me..
this will ALWAYS happens to me whenever attachment is ard the corner..
i dunnoe y..
but hopefully all wil be ok..:)

i need my own net very very very badly..
i cant just rely on other's..
it has been a very tiring week and im damn lethargic..
i need my sleep..

end here ppl..:D

happy mother's day!!

2009-05-10T00:00:00.003+08:00

this special day comes again...
wanna say a vey big HAPPY MOTHER's DAY to all great mothers in the world..!! :D

so..ya...

for the past 21 years,SHE has never stop taking care of me..
will always be there during my sick days..
will always be there when im really3 down
and will always lend me her shoulder to cry on..
a listening ears too..
her advices are the ones which made me strong all these while..
during my ups and downs in life..

SHE is RABIAH SOHADI..my lovable mum..

she's just my BESTFRIEND!!!
i will share almost EVERYTHING to her...
from boys,datings,love,school,relationship,friends and the lists just goes on and on...
its just everything..
she is just the greatest gift that god has ever gave me..

so to my dearest ibu[mother] :

Thank you so much for being the best mother a daughter could ask for...
for being my very best friend, who is always there for me.
for ur unconditional and indescribable love..
ur happy spirit..
ur loving heart..
ur special kindness..
is just so meaningful not only fr me but to ur other two daughters too..:)
you mean the WORLD to us..

I love you, my precious mum..
May u hav peace and happiness always..
without you in my life,life would be meaningless.. [sometimes,it brings me to tears to imagine tt moment]
i love you,ibu...
happy mother's day once again..

end here..
lotsa lov readers..muacks!

2009-05-09T01:26:00.002+08:00

the sweet and salt

having the swine flu alert from orange to yellow,it means that our clinical placement schedule will be resume as per normal and will go on as what being told...

in some extent,im happy abt it cuz i will have the chance to nurse babies now[which i have been looking forward to]..and for the first time i will be posted in my own hosp-to-be..:)
however in a large extent,i somehow dislikes it...
i dunnoe y..
im juz still are not ready fr attachments at the moment
and having it situated quite far from my hse when comparing to CGH,means i have to wake up a double earlier..:(
and have to prepare shoes and a 'reading up' to catch on too..haiz..

i hope my experience there will be lovely..
since this is a specialised hospital..i guez it will be lil different..

i really hope tt spore wont have any cases of H1N1..insyaallah..
it will be very chaotic if tt happens and i don wanna see any further lives are lost just because of that deadly virus..

2009-05-05T20:41:00.002+08:00

it spreading everywhere

cough-ing like nobody business for the past 2 weeks..
i seriously dunnoe why..
i tot it will get better as days goes by..
but it becomes worser..
wth!!
and every single time during lectures, have to control my breathing cuz i noe it will strike anytime..
and my throat will get very dry and painful if tt strikes..
stupid cough!!

went to the poly to get medication and also MC juz now
its really frustrating to see the super duper long queue fr taking temp..
like really OMG!!
and im given the mask,as expected..
and got 2 days MC frm the doc..

but i will still come to sch tmr i guez..
juz dun wanna miss my lectures and my project meetings...
hopefully after taking the medication, it will be better..
my immune system is really dwindling now,i dunnoe why..

labour day

2009-05-02T00:29:00.000+08:00

happy holidays ppl..

happy labour day!
no sch..in 3 stretch of days..wee!!

aniwae,went to give back the stuffs tt were once given by tt most-idiot-person-in-the-world juz now..
along with my mum, sis and zul..
seriously i feel lyke throwing all those stuffs right into tt bloody face!!!
or mayb to his mum's face..haha!
its a lucky i still respect her,cuz she's older..
if not, i would have smacked her..seriously..
annoying humans who pissing ppl off..urghhhh!!!

but they were not at home..
cant be bothered wher they go...
maybe they go to have a check up on their BRAINS i think..hah!
who cares..his relative was ther..so just pass to them..
i hope tt family noe's tt we just don go for their things..
go to hell with those stuffs!!

enuf said abt them..b4 i continue cursing...haha!
on a lighter note,we have our dinner together after tt..and spent tym at the esplanade together and just having fun..
:)

the existence of tt swine flu is scaring me..:(

idiots

2009-04-28T21:20:00.001+08:00

men are from MARS

I wonder why are idiotic, dumb and stupid guys are still alive in this world..
Cant they just rot and die??????!!!
Playing wit a women's heart is a really BIG issue here..
And it can really2 piss me off lyke crazy if it happens with the one I love..
And seeing it right infront of my naked eyes,it explodes me like seriously!!!
and I must thank to the ONE above for showing it to me..

I have faith in Allah and I believe in karma..
Yes,you can be happy abt it now and take it lyk NOTHING goes wrong..
LAUGH,as loud as u can..go ahead dumb ass..
but,it won’t be long,dude..
Ur BIG liars and tt BIG ego family of urs…we don’t lose anything..
'GOD is fair' put that inside ur bloody head!!!
You are just messing with the wrong person,bro..

And I really can't believe tt I really did 'that'
Mayb I was really damn angry and really wanna solve it asap
I juz didn't want to see any hurt from my family…
Thanks Allah fr givin me tt courage…

Because of tis incident,I began to appreciate my dear Zul..
Yeah..i can be very mean to him sometimes for i-dunnoe-wat-reason..
Keeps getting angry with the slightest mistake tt he made and make a big fuss abt it..
But..wat he shud noe tt I've never mean to hurt him..
And sometimes I did angry wit myself for hurting him..
I treasure him so so much and only god noe’s how big is my love fr him..
Knowing a guy with a sincere love and care…
Put me before him..
Sacrifice hell a lot just for me..
All that really makes me feel really grateful..
I wonder wher he came from..heh..
Thank u Allah..for answering my prayers and bringing me tt soulmate that im searching for all these while..

2009-04-12T17:00:00.000+08:00

tests

just recovered from my fever..
gosh..i didnt have an idea where the hell this sickness came from..
but alhamdulilah..everything was quite alright now..
attachments done..weee!!

2nd year is coming..pretty scared abt it too..
i noe it's going to be tougher and tougher as time goes by..
dear allah,help me in this ya? :D

my dear sis finally got her previous job back
and thanks to zimah for persuading the boss..hee
tankiu my dear..
the burden will be much lighter noeing that sis is helping the family..:D
i really hope she will continue to work..
and god,pls don make her sick again..:(

one more week to go and it will be a new beginning of school again..:(
looking forward fr it? na-ah..not really..
but to some extent,im looking forward to see my dearest classmates!!

oh well..end here for now..

tests from the almighty will keep coming..and its up to the individual to stay strong and take it all positively...
it will make us closer to HIM...
and im staying strong watever happens..
but all with the help of HIM too...

im missing him so so much...

2009-04-05T23:59:00.000+08:00

looking forward fr wed..
and i will have my official holidays....

end here.

wen will it over??

2009-04-03T20:18:00.002+08:00

wen will it over??

wont get to see me updating this blog too often..
cuz no internet at home..
depends on his vodafone if he's nice enuf to give..:)

oh well..i get a 2 days MC on thu and fri cuz my toes are swollen and im excused from wearing footwear fr both days..
so..i missed my SHS aka School Health Services..
i heard it's fun working wit the kids..
GOSH! it's really a wasted..
and worse still, i have to do a replacement fr that 2 days not in the SHS but in the ward instead!! BOOO!!!
i thought going to that ward is over..but it's not..
so my attachment is not officially over!!
as fr my other fellow frenz are finally done..
:(((

met up wit my both ARIES besties..
to gave the gifts fr their bdae..
spent a great time with them
need to hav a lot more meet ups wit them lar..
hmm..mayb once im in holz again??

pockets money are decreasing..
stuffs to buy are increasing..
haiz..can't figure out how to manage all of that..
it's really stress indeed!!

oh ya,my couple ring is lost in the ward due to my over intelligence..:'(
it really meant a lot to me..
and hav a big memories wit it..
til now,i cant forgive myself..

attachment

2009-03-21T14:08:00.003+08:00

attachment!!!

so far,my ward was rather ok..in the sense of the staffs ther..wen compared to my previous ward :$, they are wayyyyy nicer,mayb? haha!
and ya, having in a surgical ward,i feel ther's a lot of learning opportunities for me..
hell ALOT!!!
and i learned alot too..
but i must say..it was TIRING!!! :((
and as usual, new shoes are killing my legs off!! urghh!!
blisters will nvr run away,whenever i wore a new covered shoe..wth..-_-

oh ya,i was teamed up along with the ITE students..
they are nice ppl..
thanks to them,it made my work much more fun....
and to be honest, they are much much competent than us..and i admired that! :)

sylvester!! haha..it's zul favourite cartoon character!!
and one of these day wen we juz went to the arcade juz to look ard cuz we are initially bored and upon seeing this game machine wher its full of sylvester toys,he really started to get excited and wanting to play..
and because of soo confident tt he can win,he wasted a total of 5 bucks juz trying to get tt fav toy of his..its funny to see him lose and lose and lose and finally show tt innocent sympathetic face!!

hahaha..he's juz crazy..tt childish side in him really make my day..i dunnoe y!! mayb im a lil childish too??? HAHAHAHA!!! mayb sometimes..:) heh!!

2009-03-12T14:28:00.002+08:00

recent updates:)

attachments is like 4 more days left..
urghh!!!
honestly,im in a holiday mood at the moment
and im super super lazy to go thru those phase again..especially that early morning shifts!!! :(

but aniwae, i still hav to show a gd performance on these..
hav to start on my revision..in wic i havent even start at it yet..
ya, i realise too that azizah has been a lazy bum thruout tis 3 weeks hols..
and im not sure wat i've spent my days wit during those periods..hahaha -_-

oh well, enuf said abt attachment,shall we?

oh yes,
sis,syidah was being brought to hospital...AGAIN!!
due to her usual pain..
and since she's been moarning in pain,we decided to go ther again to find help fr her..

its pity said tt it happened right on the next day of her bdae!!
since the docs in the A&E cant actually figure out wat are her main causes of her pain,she was being referred to a gynaecology specialist,the next 2 days..

and upon gg there,AGAIN,the doc there still are clueless abt her pain and was being followed up to the next ultrasound scan in a mth's tym..
i find it so sickening to went there wit difficulty and the outcome end up to be a dissapointing one..
hate those "go to the next follow up..wic is the blablabla"
i mean lyk..cant they juz settle it within tt same day??
without us gg in and out and we are charged wit the fees..
arghh!!! irritating..

but oh well..
fr sis sake..juz hav to bare wit it but on the other hand,alhamdulilah,we are able to get financial help frm the medical social worker..:)
it rilly benefits alot!!!
so juz hav to wait wat is the outcome fr her scan,next mth..

and ya,sis was being put to a 6 mths off frm wrk until she was completely cured..
her health is much much more important now..:(

syidah's bdae :)

2009-03-12T14:01:00.010+08:00

the mini celebration

been wanting to update abt hw my sis bdae celebration went out on that 8 march but unfortunately, didnt hav the opportunity to do so..
but ya,im able to now..
so..

it went well overall but everything was kinda rush tho..cuz 1stly, we cooked late,went out late..so total=all late.

only god noes how me n zul running up n down, going all the way frm different places to places unstoppably..

1) to take the cake at white sands..
2) going to her guy's hse at tamp to take fds
3) prepare on the treasure hunt fr her at pasir ris park..
4) gg all ard the park just to get a suitable spot to hav tt mini-celebration..

gosh it was so exhausting!!!

but seeing her smile at the end of the day juz pays off..
im glad she love our mini celebration and our presents:)

here few pics:

the cake:)

the bdae gerl:)

syidah wit her ehem2 :)

helping out to distribute the cakes

her treasure hunt begins:)

reading her msges:)

last words, HAPPY 19TH BDAE KNGA!!!!!
muackz!! we juzt lovee u!!

2009-03-10T23:34:00.001+08:00

stealing a moment..

plenty stuffs to update..
will do it very very SOON!!!!

see ya!! muackss!! :)

swensen

2009-03-02T12:18:00.007+08:00

belated bdae for her:)

yest went to swensens to celebrate my mum's belated bdae..
been waiting fr me and his pay to come to celebrate it tgther..
its nice to see her smile..
along with that,it's a first tyme experience to have a dinner at swensens for her and my fellow lovely sisters..glad tt u all love it,dear...
the food was awesome!! esp the desserts..:)

well..here comes few pics:

with the help of the staff ther:D

me n my lovely mum

ignore this crazy man beside me

me n dearie

my beautiful sisters:)

the gift that i bought fr my great mom:)

and up next, its my sis,syidah's bdae..juz a few days away..:D

lost

2009-02-27T12:40:00.000+08:00

where are you,.little thing?

urghh!!! feel soo annoyed now!!!
my precious thumbdrv wic contains of important documents,musics,lots and lots of pics are declared lost in bedok town sec!!!
thanks to my dearest sis..:(
i know the founder will be glad to see all those hundreds and hundreds of pictures..arghhhh!!!!

that thumbdrv hav been helping me in keeping all those docs as a back up ever since my laptop has been carried away..

but wat to do..lost is lost and nothing cud be done to get it back..
i really hope the founder will be kind enuf to giv back to the sch or teacher or anything lyke that...
cuz that thumbdrive is very important to us...:'(

end

2009-02-18T14:22:00.002+08:00

the phase has ended :D

phewwww!!! all exams are finally over!!!
feel lyke screaming out now.. hee!
but i cant be too excited abt it fr now as the results are not yet released..
and my final results seriously scares me!!!
i hope i can proceed to year2..insyaallah..

now i wanna hurray-hurray fr 3 weeks b4 the day comes for my attachment..sheesh!!

****im seriously b.r.o.k.e!!****

girls..i hope fri i can make it..still in need of cash..
looking forward fr the outing tho, really! :)

valentine's surprise:)

2009-02-14T23:40:00.005+08:00

valentine's surprise:)

it was a very meaningful day for me..
nvr in my life,i've celebrated valentine
and i had been wishing since my sec sch days that someone will gave me flowers in that very special day..HAHA!! thinking back, its crazy..
and after 20 years,it had finally come true..
i had my 1st ever valentine wit him and he really melted me with everything tt he had done..
the frame tt he did himself,the treats and especially the flowers..thank u so much,dear!!
i really had a great tyme!

but holding tt flowers all the way seriously embarassed me, heh!
but its so sweeetttt of u,love!!

juz lovee him soo much,wit all my heart!!

our last day for 2nd sem:)

2009-02-07T21:18:00.013+08:00

it was the last day of our 2nd semester...
only left to sit fr the exams and i can say a very good BYEBYE to my 1st year..:)
yest my whole class were cam-whoring lyke crazy..
and outside of tut room,it seriously sounded lyke a market place!! haha :p
but it was fun lar..

i wonder hw time flies..
and the next time i sit fr my next lecture,i will alr be in year 2..
and im aware that each year passed,the expectation of us will be much higher. damn :(

alryte..let the pictures do the talking aitee..

from my lovely suzanne:) thnx!

taken from gel:)

girlfriends:)

angela.amala.me.tasha.zimah.mira.doreen:)

me and cutie luanne:)

the malays in our claz:)
[was looking fr atika n aziah but were nt ard]

here comes nur azizah bte abdul aziz n nur aziah bte aziz:)
(its amazing hw close our names could get)

me and atika:)

me and ser ting:)

me and natasha:)

me and santi:)

the 4 thorns in my class:)

our last lunch fr 1st year:)

cheers!!:)

i just love this pic:D

my r.o.c.k.i.n. class!!

2009-02-07T01:20:00.000+08:00

lots and lots of pics awaits you..:)
will update abt it soon..:D

fast forward can??

2009-02-04T04:36:00.003+08:00

i've decided to have a new skin fr my blog as im getting bored with my previous one..haha!
since this azizah got nothing better to do and think she has a whole free time in the world,she make one :D
and mind you,i've spent a total of 6+++ hrs to do all this codes,put info's,and make changes a few's and ther's
and finally i got what i want..
heh! so...ya..im satisfied.

exams are like few days away...
need to get started wit my notes and all..
i dont want any disappointment again!! na-ah..
god,help me in this ya!
and after all these 4 diff exams are over, we're gonna go out to celebrate the end of our 1st year in this sch...ryte my gerls?heh!
soo looking forward to that..

gosh,cant believe, it gonna end soon..
alrytz,
can i hav my sleep now?? -_-Yawwwnnnn!!!
can ??
thank u...hee!
tata lovely readers!!

welcome SHASHA!!! :)

2009-01-31T00:46:00.003+08:00

me n dearie was having our so called dinner at a coffee shop infrnt of my hse, 3 days ago....
wen we saw this cute adorable cat otw back..
and as usual,zul would stop at any cats which are cute to him and would start cuddle it a little..
well,tt pretty cat seems to adore it..and followed us back,in every steps tt we took..
and we stop for awhile to pamper it fr like 10 mins and finally cuz of sympathy,zul bought foods fr her..
and tt bond between us and the cat develops..

she juzz lovee wen we cuddled her..showing that "syiok" look..haha!!she is juz soo adorable..
finally,cuz we dun hav the heart to leave her, i decided to take her in,inside my hse..
aparently zul wants her but he juz got too many cats at home..
and surprisingly,my dad loves her cuz she dun seems to make a nuisance..like any other cats tt we've seen..
she juz love being pampered!! want us to syg2 her..haiz..so cutee
and for the first time,dad approved us to take a cat as our pet..and initially,he's the one who sounded me to take her..:)
yayyness!!

now its been 3 days taking care of her..
me and zul called her, SHASHA..:D

welcome shasha!!!

she will be part of our family..:)

here comes another one...

2009-01-29T23:48:00.003+08:00

finally ALL presentations are done!!
juz now was the last and im quite relief aftr everything has over!!

now left with the 1000 words communication essay wich is due in 3 days time, and i hv nt started on it yet..
it was really a busy week fr the couple last weeks and i didnt have the opportunity to start and furthermore,i dont want my brain to get hay-wire with all getting jumbled up..so i prefer to take it slowly..:D
and fortunately,HA are done,projects too..
will DIE!Die! work on my another essay tmrw and all the way till sun..:)

attachment is coming soon!!!16 march!!
gosh..time really flies!!
oh ya,im being posted to ward 47,surgical..i wonder hw surgical wards look like..pretty excited abt it too:)
and...with my crazy peiwen,and my classmate joker,ben in the same shift,it surely will add a lil liveliness in my work..

challenges

2009-01-27T01:03:00.001+08:00

i seriously need a new mobile phone..
cuz my current phone tt im using, started to dislike me already[haha] and create a headache to me..
and i have been hoping to buy one since the last last last last last mth..
and it seems that its nt happening

family condition worries me alot..
and it somehow affected me a little..
it irritates me alot wen ppl who dont bother to do something even its so clearly showed that i need their help..haiz.

and ya..
i have been wanting to save money in my savings bank account..
and im clueless when to actually start it cuz i had no opportunity to do so..
gosh..hopefully,it will happen soon..

i wanna hurray-hurray lar!!!!

thank u.. :)

2009-01-18T22:00:00.002+08:00

17th is a special date fr me n him..
and yesterday,he planned a small picnic to celebrate our relationship so far..
it was so sweet of him to wake up early morning and cooked by himself juz fr the both of us..
apparently,he's nt used to cook and infact, he hates cooking cuz he noes NUTS abt it....hahah!
and knowing that he took an effort to do that, sumhow melts me..

i noe u will be reading this..
thanks fr the food,dear..
and the picnic overall..
i had a great time wit u yest,nvr a day which i didnt enjoyed being wif u and had nvr been a dissapointing one..
ur stupid and silly jokes has always make me laughed!!
and thanks fr making my stomach hurts because of tt..heh.
thanks for eveything!!
i hope our relationship will stay forever as it is now..
u're juz so special and irreplaceable,love..

BOOOO!!!!

2009-01-14T19:58:00.002+08:00

this week and upcoming weeks after this is indeed,

a stressful weeks!!

urghhhhh!!!!!!

what a day

2009-01-08T11:54:00.000+08:00

06.01.09
will remember that date for lyfe!!
intention of going school early didnt seems to happen afterall..
wen i fell very badly in the toilet on that particular morning..and my whole stretch at my back hurts so much..
ther's some bruises on my leg too..
haiz..i really thank god that it didnt bang onto my head..

xray results shows that thers no fractures..no distortion of joints too..alhamdulilah..
only that the impact from the fall make my whole back felt so strained..
but the doc said it will healed within a few days or weeks..
juz have to bare wit it and be relying on creams tt they gave..
i got my part time massager at home..heh..love u mum..
and she noes how loud i could screamed wen she do tt..hahah!

exams are coming...urghhhh!!! -_-

happy new year!!! :)

2008-12-31T12:45:00.001+08:00

2008 has come to the end...
it hav been a super duper great year for me!!!
with only 1 single year..way way lotz of things happened in my life and all that happened was beyond my expectations..really..
and i really hav to thank the ONE above for everything..

its a year full of happiness..
full of love..
full of friendship..
full of changes..
full of laughs..

i've met GREAT classmates
and a GREAT partner who never fail to make me laugh and has sacrificed alot for me..
and that i have to thank allah soo much ...

insyaallah, 2009 will be a next great year for me..
im prepared to face any challenges that allah has destined for me..
im pretty excited for 2009..:)

to all,
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!
and have a joyful and fruitful 2009!!!! :D

its c.h.r.i.s.t.m.a.s!

2008-12-25T18:59:00.000+08:00

this essay is killing me!!! :(
been going back and forth to the lib trying to do this never-ending essay..
which apparently cant seems to finish it up..
i juz WISHHHHH some smart kid is here wit me helping me wit this frustrating essay..

yest went to JB to shop fr some house necessity
and tdae ya,is christmas!! and i spent a LOVELY time doing this essay..
how nice and pleasant it is,isn't it?

and finally,tmr is the day...
i will date with my dear iqah..hahaha!!
im sure ther's plenty of tings to talk abt between us..tht story-telling session..soo cant wait..
its juz been sooo long lar..

new year is coming..:))

and oh...
thanx for spending ur precious time in helping on the research wit me..
its juz soo sweeeettttt of u.. :)

the day has came :)

2008-12-12T15:43:00.005+08:00

weee!!!!!
like finally..the day that im waiting fr has came..:)
its HOLIDAYs!!!!!!

juz wanna rest and rot at home!! hahah..
i have been looking forward fr tdae sch to end..heh!

however, like wat ayu said...
"skola mane leh kasi kiteorg senang......." :)
sch will keep givin us headache even during holidays!!! idiotic!!
ther's this....
PEFE 1500 wrds essay that i need to start on..
2nd skill test for nursing lab...
e nvr ending presentation ICA...
urghhh!!!
can they juz give us a REALLY REAL break???

oh well...poly life is always sucky..
im aware of it!!

yestrdy meet up wit ayu was great!
we REALLY talk alot!!!