excellent!!! GREAT!!

my head really hurts!! feel dizzy!! it feels lyke the pain is playing merry-go round in my head!! haha..ARGH!! this toothache really affects my life!! *tsk tsk*

cant it juz go away..?? puh-leasse!!! i cannot stand it animore..!! back frm werk at 12pm juz nw n immediately grab some panadols..den..i sleep the whole day..!! can't manage to get up..

havent eaten!!! im starving!! all ma family members went to my grandma hse..n me?? stucked in the hse alone!! wat a day!!

no food in the kitchen!! hopefully,they come back wif foods..lol!

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ARGH!!oh god!!

it's back!!! the toothache from hell has returned!! sometimes i swear these toothaches will be the death of me..seriously!!! cuz i really suffer with this stupid damn toothache..after fr abt 1 mth of no pain without panadols...my toothache returned..argh!!

i tell u its really damn horrible!! this reoccuring toothache that is on a tooth that last year supposingly shud be remove..is still in my mouth!! i juz dun wanna go fr a dentist check up again..erm..actually..it's nt dat i dun want..it's juz dat i'm fobia of gg to dentist..it really makes my hair stand on end..haha!! but i juz want the pain to go away..and never come back!!!

so, for the past few weeks...i hav been "suffering"..it was absolutely unbearable!!
wif memories of no sleep and pain bringing me to tears such a short time ago..oni one thing dat can helps!! it's the extra panadol!! it is the oni way that soothes the pain and the only that works immediately...i noe i can't allow myself to continue taking these "drugs"..think i've already taken way too many...i can't help myself ..i always do this..sometimes,wen its soo fucking painful..it makes me impatient fr the panadols to work dat i take more than it shud..haiz..

wen i starrted blogging,there was still little pain..my wh0le head is throbbing!! the pain juz go towards the nerves of the brain!! OMG!! i cn juz feel it!! oh shit,i'll write more nxt tyme..i cant handle it anymore ryte now..this fucking hurts..lol

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its weekends again..!!

didn't realise hw time flies..b4 i noe it..2mrw will be sat..n back to werk again!! urgh!!!

gt a morning shift fr 2mr n sun!! n i hav to be up as early as 5.30am!!!

oh ya..PAYDAY is comin...!! yipee!!! im seriously BROKE now!!! n i xtremely hate dat!!

ZIZAH is craving fr $$$$$$ now!!! =p

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to start it off..tdae was a normal day..juz like any other dayz..kinda tired tho..as usual..
tdae's web mulitmedia was fun indeed !!

tdae prob..learning on how to create a recipe webpage..kinda cool..i really lyke to c the overall outcome..n afta everything has completely done..i will b lyke..
"did i juz do dat??" lol..juz can't believe i make all of those..cuz initially..im really NUTS bout all these IT stuffs..

unfortunately..my tdae's overall work..haish..all turn haywire!!
im lyke stuck in ma claz fr 2 hrs..doin dat webpage the whole day..it all turns alright at first..oni until few minutes b4 my team was abt to present....my stupid webpage juz can't open!! urgh!! i was lyke soo stress trying to figure out where my mistakes is..i was so so frustrated wif dat webpage of mine by dat moment..

until one of ma teammate, Iz..was lyke " dah zizah,tk muh nangis ah!!" haha..
since wen i was crying?? lol..i dunnoe..mayb im so stress up wif the whole damn thing..n tired..plus the yawning umpteen tymez..makes my eyes go teary..
i scared i will b dwngraded fr dat..haish..

but at the end of the day...i noe where's my mistakes is..wif the help of ma faci..
its juz a damn small careless mistakes..the whole thing juz went...urghh!!!!

have to b extra extra careful nxt tyme!!

hmm..watever it is..i think 2nd yr modules rather fun to me..learn a lot of new and interesting stuffs..i loike!!
my clazmates so far..starting to get bonded..it's been 1 week we've been together..hmmm...
we will b lyke together until sept i guez..

u noe wat??? tmrw's no skul!! yay yay!!
wanna rest...can't get enuf sleep fr the past few dayz..haish..

oh well..i'm done now!!

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okay..well let's juz say.. i hav a lot of thingz in my mind ryte now..

well..yeah..niwae..heart still feels kinda heavy..nt rilly gonna say why or how dat wud happen cuz i didnt noe y i feel this way actually..
so yeah..gonna keep a lot of stuffz to myself now..
hmmm..mayb its juz a bit empty and it alwayz feel lyke there's something missing or stuff lyke dat..
well..too many thingz in our lives dat would hav to change n would be affected n everything..
i think it wud b really b better if we were juz gd frenz..
yeah..nt rilly into guyz at the moment..juz wanna focus on other stuffs..
but dunnoe y.. fr some weird reason,he is lyke still in my mind sometimes n i didnt really wanna notice it or think bout it cuz it's rilly STUPID!!!

all these stuffz however got me thinking and all..seriously..i think i shud juz get over it..even tho its hard..cuz i think nothings ever gonna happen!!

he actually noe his priorities n i guez he's gonna stick to them..cuz fr me..normally wen a guy really likez a gerl,they wud really go fr it..but this one is lyke different fr some reason..i juz guez he's really different..

haiz..sumtimes..i really think this love thingy practically juz stuffz dat are really stupid n full of bullshit..lol..mayb too many getting hurt dat's y..

so..fr now..i juz c everyone as "juz a fren" material i guezz..bcuz i believe its better to stay frenz or even best frenz wif guys at the moment..well, dat's juz fr me..
bcoz truth is..wen sumthing bad happens wif ur bf, u nvr become frenz wif them as in closely ever again..

hope to get over him asap..

well...i wanna write more but i think juz gonna keep the rest all to myself..

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its weekends!!!

supposingly..a day for us to rest n juz having a fun tyme..

but fr me..weekendz r spent at work instead..haish..very very "FUN" indeed!!

feel so exhausted now..Zzzzzzzz!!!!

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finally..back frm skul..!!


haiz..wat a journey..all d way frm bedok to woodlands in d morning..n woodlands all the way to bedok..wen gg home..


today was super tiring!!.. learning Web mulitmedia tdae..my first lesson..i dun noe dat learning d web multimedia can b fun..playing wif the html codes to create a new web page..really cool stuff!! am looking forward to learn more bout dat in the future weeks..


sharp at 4.30pm,went fr IG meeting ..my first bazaar meeting fr d new sem..a lot of new events coming up soon..n i will b involve in the sla event..will showcase our IG fr the fresh yr ones studentz .. hee!!


tmrw no skul !!! yay!! damn shiok!! fr yr 2's..wed is a "rest" day for us!! haha..not sure bout yr 3 tho..so..oni 4 skuling dayz every week..hmm..dunnoe y but im beginning to lyke skul now..hahakz..mayb bout the modules that im learning now....n plus my clazmates..they r super cool!!

even tho there's no claz ..but hav to be up early to mit iqah tmrw..haish...juz thinking of waking up lateee tmrw..lol..haiya!! dis sla event juz spoiled my plan!! hehe..we're incharged of making the scrapbk fr dat event .. have to find ideas in decorating n designing it..hmmm..


Ouchhhhh!! awww!! my stupid mensus cramp comes again!! argh!! damn painful!!
hate this!!

hmm..my stomach begin to growl again..haha..i need foood!! havent eat meals the whole day..!!


ok..think end here..wanna eat!!..tata!!

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today..im officially..a 2nd yr rp student!! hahakz..

today marks again a new beginning fr me..a new class..a new clazmates..learning new modules(this tyme..really relevant to my course!! thank god!)..n most imprtantly, a new goal fr me!!

ya,i noe i hav been slacking damn terribly fr my 1st yr..and my grades all went dwn extremely..n i tell u..my grades juz suckz!! lol..

i have to really WAKE UP!!! n really take my sch seriously fr this yr..means..no more frequent absents..no more late-comings..n hav to really contribute myself in claz more..i will work on it..seriously..!!

so..today..meet new frenz again..its rilly great n nice to meet new faces..especially wen u're in rp..the changing of classes every semester really widen up my circle of friendz..don't think i will xperience dat in other schz as much as i'm in rp..

so today..unfortunately..im LATE..again!! but by a few minutez oni lar..haha..but dun blame me..cuz firstly..iqah is late..unxpectedly!! haha..cuz she's seldom late..
2ndly..the bus dat i board..caught in a jam!! Noe it will happen..fr sure..!! haish..
3rdly..few minutes juz gone wen trying to find my "so far away"W6 block..it's really damn far..

wen i enter ma new claz..juz felt..so embarassing..haha..cuz d claz is lyke almost full..n im quite paiseh..cuz im late!! haha..

my clazz was alright..meet nice frenz tho..d number of malay students in ma claz is lyke so pathetic!! there's oni 4 mlyz..3 grlz(pluz me)..1 guy..he's the oni thorn among d roses..!! hahaha..

nieza n siti fairuz..seemz nice..thank god..cuz im really afraid if im in d same claz wif sum bunch of bitches..haha..havent gt the opportunity to tok more wif fairuz tho..
my teammates was great too..cn get along well easily..especially..joey..

hope me n ma clazmatez will b more bonded as days goes by..lookz lyke it's a nice claz..wif nice bunch of pplz..hee!!

looking frward to go to sch..but............


soooo f**king lazy to wake up in d morning..haha....

iqah..if u're reading this..PLZ DUN B LATE AR TMRW !!!! if not..chiosinchi to u!!! hmph!!

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so..finally we 4 mit up!! after planning it so so long tyme ago..haha..finally we make it todae.. since i take a day off ..n plus the rest is all free so,we plan to go out ..


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soo damn tired!!

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Yay!!! i gt my pay!! I gt my pay!!
Lalalalala..Dance zizah..!! Dance!! hahaha..crap!!
After so...long i've been waiting..finally d day cums..
Yipee!! i gonna shop till i drop..!! lol
Hmmm...unfortunately..half of my pay has already go straight to my bills..! haiz..
There r a lot of stuffs i rilly wanna buy actually..
Bags..clothes..jeans..make up..earings..necklace

Ya rite!!! Zizah!! tink u gt $10,000 izit?? Crazy!! haha
i noe i cant rilly disciplined myself wen cums to money!! hehe
especially wen this eyes of mine get attracted to sumthing!! n plus i gt the money..surely..i will buy it ..!! haiyo!! azizah!!! plz discipline urself..okok..i will try..=p

Hmm..to sum it up tdae was an enjoying day fr me..



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Ahhhhh...!!! hw comfortable my bed is!! finally got home..frm werk..haha

tdae was my starting day at bedok outlet..

it was alright there..not much customers came in..
since d bedok outlet had this 4D or TOTO (or watever they called it..) branch there..ppl usually came in..nt to buy the stuffs at cheers..but they went to dat branch instead..haiz..those bunch of apeks n nyonyas..haha

soo tired...hmmm..i'm nt tired of the werk..but it's juz soo tired waiting fr customers to come to my counter..lol
i think i yawn countless timez there..haha..it was boring tho..

furthermore..for this 3 mths i think.. i will have to go thru probation..n rite nw,im having dat..haiyo..i juz dun understand y is the need of me goin thru training again..wen im oredy familiarize wif the job..its nt dat i juz started working as a cashier!! ..juz waste my time!! lol..

if it's like 1 week or 1 mth..den i think im fine wif it..but now..it's 3 mths!!! ARGH!!! crazy..!! i hope they could like change their mind n decrease the number of the probation period..hmmm..


argh..my mum juz called me!! ask me to accompany her to dat SHENG SHIONG...aiyo!! muz b buying a lot of stuffs there..IM SURE!! hate to bring the trolleys!! haha..

oritez..till here..
gonna change now..



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Phew..Thank God..Everything was back to normal now..

I had a heart to heart conversation wif my mum n finally we soon make up..
i juz hate to b continue quarelling wif my mum n i noe its nt rilly gd to behave dat way..

she has asked fr forgiveness frm him n she admits dat it was her mistake..
i hope he rilly forgives her..

from now onwards,me or my mum will nt bother him anymore.I think dat's d best solution fr us..but most importantly its best fr him..

i juz dun want me or my mum become d cause of him being stress wif the whole situation n we dun want to interfere in his life seriously..!!

Hmmm...

Watever it is..i still treasured him as a fren..im nt goin to put high hopes on him no more.
I will enjoy my life to d fullest dat i can b fr noe..it's rilly a waste of time thinking of all these stuffs..wen in d end, one of the party gets hurt..i rilly hate to b in dat kind of situation..

If he's rilly meant fr me,den he will one day watever happens in between..but if he's nt..i believe GOD has "sumbody" dat is already destined fr me..juz have to wait n c..

Furthermore,seeing other ppl's pain make me rilly scared of hoping n also to fall fr a guy!
i dun wanna feel the pain again n i noe its really really damn painful..my heart can't b mend dat easily..
i dun wanna shed any tears again juz bcoz of a guy..it's kinda stupid i think..lol..

im rilly happie dat everything was resolved now between me n my mum cuz it's rilly awkward of me to like nt talking to her at all for like 3 days!!haha..cuz it seldom happen between us..

She is d person dat i luv the most in this entire whole world!!! she is the most imprtant person in my life n i cant bear to c her sad..

I juz luv u so much mum!!! more than anybody!!

im sure u noe dat!!

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