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some ppl may alrdy sensed my dissapearance in sch by nw..
its kinda noticable, i noe.. well, if u, readers, do bother to take a look at my tagboard, may somehw noe wat basically d situation tt im facing nw.. and the state tt im having nw.. but afta giving a really really really and [many2 really] deep thot abt it, im giving up on my IT course tt i've taken currently.. well, yeah its true, im alrdy halfway thru,n all these while, tt i've been in sch r juz wasted.. i do agree on tt.. but at some point, i tink its also a waste of time, of me, gg to sch, knowing tt nothing absorbs in tis brain of mine at the end of the day..isn't it pointless??? i do try... and even still, i tried to LOVE wat im learning in claz.. Only GOD noe's..hw hard i've tried..its tough!!! n now i realize, i've made a VERY big mistake in taking IT.. 1stly, its nt to my interest.. AT ALL!!! 2ndly, it's a really large industry fr me to catch up on.. even IF i graduated, there's still extremely way too much competitors out ther fr me to compete on..n wic i've to continue upgrading myself every few yrs in order to survive in tis IT profession.. i am nt tt smart to deal wif all tt.. n i noe, im nt tt group of individual who're keen enuf in doin so..cuz simply, i am juz not capable of it..get it?? n having me to continue taking tis course juz add on my strain..i absolutely can't take it animore.. Easily said, i juz cant see myself doin well in tis IT line..That's it!! after much rational thinking, its better fr me to juz choose another course wic i cn see an ATLEAST a better "light" of my future..n i see it in "nursing" ya, even i do admit, i dislike it at first, but i dunnoe y..sumhw, i've began attracted to it.. moreover, i personally tink tt nursing has a much much better prospect wen compared to IT.. i really hope tt this is the path tt GOD has shown me to lead me in the future.. i prayed fr the best..and in addition, i wished i cud atleast accomplished something tt is worth having..insyaallah..God, lead me in this.. there's nt much raya visiting fr my frenz tis yr.. yeah..as ppl are bz wif sch n stuff...n the oni daez left are only the weekends.. so, yesterday.. i had much fun gg raya wif my former sec's buddies.. its rilly nice to see each of them again..afta a long tyme.. :)
however, we didn't go to much places.. the day was alrdy turn night as soon as i reach the 1st hse.. haha! BUT!!! i hav fun..!! even tho, im completely worn-out at the end of the day....hah! sadly,nt much photos taken wen im wif them tho.. but as soon as me,ayu n ira reached my plc..[the rest r gg seperate ways] off course..it's camera-whoring tyme!!! taking pics lyke nobody's business..hahaha!! but its fun ok.. :) im exhausted n u noe wat?? bcoz of tt exhaustion..i overslept!!! ..n offcourse, didnt go to work la..haiz.. nvm..atleast i had a nice extra hrs of sleep .. ;p these are some of the photos taken..      
ok..i think im done nw.. signin off.. peace! :) mum was such a darling..!!
i didn't expect tt she would bought me a bdae cake fr me yesterday nite... well..even tho my bdae was lyke..alrdy over.. haha! but im absolutely touched!! its soo sweet of her.. :) thnx mum!! luv u!!    
so..happy 19th belated bdae to me!! hehe! oh ya..thnx soo much.. frenz, fr all the bdae gifts to me!! i really appreciate it alot!!! :) well,
ramadhan is ending soon..in juz 2 days.. :( it's pretty sad tho.. i juz hope im still alive in tis world wen the next ramadhan came along..insyaallah!! in the meantime,i would lyke to wish my FRIENDS *u noe who u r * n relatives.. a very happy ramadhan and wif the Syawal coming in soon..i would like to wish u all... Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri n Maaf Zahir Batin..heh! tt's all i wanna say actually..haha.. till next tyme.. tata!! hey all..!!!
ok, 7 oct.. so tdae is my special day..it's my bdae..finally im officially 19..hee!! ;) [even tho sumtimez , i don behave lyke a 19 yr old lady..hahaha!] well, consider, bdae to b pretty special..especially wen it falls on ramadhan..i really felt blessed.. :) god, i thank u fr blessing me wif another yr of my life..i am a yr older but age is nt wat matters to me..wat matters to me is tt wif each yr i grow older, i grow closer to u..the most tt i ask fr is juz patience in the time of hardship..n gd health in the time of illness..n guide me throughout my this thing called "life".. fr 19 yrs i've been in tis world..ther's a lot of ups n dwns fr me..there were times wher im almost feeling lyke giving up..but i feel u were there wif me all along.. and at the same tyme,u taught me to b strong.. experiences really taught me a lesson tt i'll nvr forget..n likewise, it makes me to b more wiser wen handling certain things in my life.. i am really grateful to u, god.. i juz hope years ahead,it'll b a better one fr me..praying the best fr my future is all tt i cn wish for.. :) well,,juz came bck frm wrk..feeling a bit exhausted as usual..frankly, im nw sick of wrkplace.. sick of the staffs ther..sick of the wrds tt came out frm their mouth..urgh!!! i juz nid a break frm all those bunch of bias nyonyas....&%$#!!!! they seriously piss me off sumtimes.. nvm,dun tok bout it shall we..?? oh ya..to all those who wished me..i really apreciate it lotz..thnx soo much ya.. n thnx fr remembering.. it really touches me greatly.. ;) ok, will end here fr now.. tc ppl.. wif luv, zizah.. weee!!! sumhow i'm a lil bit joyful tdae..becoz..
finally... i gt my pay..!!! feel like years waiting fr it to come..*haiz* n im slightly happier cuz i've earned a bit higher tis tyme.. :) ther goes my hardwork all tis while.. waking up damn early in the morning during my sch holz wen im suppose nt to.. aniwae, will b heading to geylang later afta skul.. nid to buy some xtra2 stuffs fr hari raya.. sheesh! actually im plain2 lazy to go..seriously! but mum asked me..so, hav to..!! so, after my mum, now, it's sis's turn to get sick..flu n coughs ..haiz.. [i HOPE i wont get infected, plz..] i juz HATE HATE HATE getting sick.. especially flu n coughs!!! much hated. so,sis, plz stay away frm me..haha!! n get better.... fast!! n to add on, her eyes were "tembel" haha.. n..i dunnoe y her eyes are easily get infected..hmm..kecian2.. ok, now my stomach is super growling.. i tink they r making an album or sumthing..haha!! nt fasting tdae becoz of period. n..havent been eaten since morning wic im actually suppose to b4 gg to sch.. furthermore..cant eat outside..cuz im respecting the others who fast ... so, wat to do?? here i am..waiting fr the break-fast.. :( *will b turning 19 in 3 days time..gosh..it take sooo long fr me to officially be 19.[shake head]* Dont u hate wen u lose frenz who used to be so close nt so long ago??
ok, ther's this one fren of mine.. we used to be so freaking close bck in my sec days.. she's like my first ever fren i talked to wen i first step into my sec sch.. gg skul 2gether..gg bck home 2gether.. hang ard at her hse..make a fool of ourself.. gosh..suddenly those memories came bck.. however,our close frenship r nt fr long tho.. bcoz of some reason, i was distancing frm her.. at tt period of time, i tink it's the best fr me..cuz i sumhw got into trouble frequently wen im wif her.. n in some way, i dislike her circle of frenz tt she has as well.. n bcoz of tt, i tried to get away frm her..tried to ignore her since then.. and wen we met ard in sch, only [fake] smile are being shown to each other.. sumtimes, wen i tink bck..i kinda feel bad cuz i keep tinking im the one who throw the friendship juz like that.. but in true facts,im actually nt.. i nvr ever had the intention to do that..seriously.. i still treasure her as a fren..infact until nw.. but again,there's this guilty inside me wic nvr fades away.. i still feel bad..yes i am..i cant lie to myself.. fortunately, few wks bck, we strted to contact again..afta so many yrs.. all to the help of my another fren who givs me her contact no. n wat shocks me is tt..all these while she has been finding me.. n she wants tt friendship again..wic hav been lost fr a couple of yrs.. deep dwn inside me, i sumhw felt really touched by wat she said.. i nvr ever thought tt she's searching fr me.. adding to my shockness, she's nw a childhood teacher!! n i muz say, im happy fr her.. i guez wat's past is past.. everybody makes a mistake..perhaps im childish..dunnoe...mayb..hah!! well, gg to break-fast wif her probably one of these days.. i dunnoe hw the situation wil b lyke wen i mit her..i guez i'll b kinda awkward.. but i hope im nt.. well,its juz been soo long since the last tyme i actually tok to her.. but nvm, put that negative thoughts aside.. watever it is..im truly glad we contact again.. :) ok..i feel kinda lost in some of my modules..cuz its so damn complicating..especially modules wic are related to codes, scripts n all tt stuff..oh god.
n to add on..there's also theory-wised modules wher we hav to research on and on and on...in order to fully understnd..that makes me sick..!!! faci didnt help much.seriously..!! well, as u guyz noe..RP, WE,students, are the ones who hav to be independent in our own learning..we juz cant simply rely on faci's..[they oni did help like at the end of the day??] n dat's stupid i guez..haha! n we are the pathetic ones..who hav to crack our precious brain,figuring out the solutions of the "problems" given..wth!! and...see this..[left hand corner]  Understanding Test's coming up!!! fr that 2 solid days of thurs n fri....shit..!!! im aiming atleast a B or better..n i really hope i cn achieve tt.. UT is the main thing to me..aside my daily grades.. n i really hav to score fr all of my UT's..i noe i cn.. insyallah.. :) |
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Nur Azizah bte Abdul Aziz * 7 Oct 1988; turning 23yrs * am a libra * was a NYP & RP-ian * simple yet complicated * have learnt to appreciate things ard me and nt juz taking it for granted * living my life to its fullest * trying to be a better person in every single day of my life * realise am much stronger now * great besties * fiance * purple.black. * surfing net.shopping.hugs. * makeups.clothes.shoes excites her * liars * bitches * hypocrites * braggers * veggies -_- * backstabbers April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011 July 2011 August 2011 Xx Angela xX Xx Atikah [Icka] xX Xx Ain [sis] xX Xx Ayu xX Xx Ben xX Xx Doreen xX Xx Eileen xX Xx Ekinsan xX Xx Ella [Zul's Cuz] xX Xx Fairuz xX Xx Harith xX Xx Iqah xX Xx Iqah [priv] xX Xx LadyAzVam xX Xx Jaclyn xX Xx Jessie xX Xx Lisza xX Xx Mira [NYP] xX Xx Mira [RP] xX Xx Munir xX Xx Myza xX Xx Natasha xX Xx Nieza xX Xx NuruL Aini xX Xx Raleah xX Xx Salwa xX Xx Santi xX Xx Shaz xX Xx Shidah [cheers] xX Xx Syahidah [BTS] xX Xx Ting Ting xX Xx Wanie xX Xx Wawa xX Xx Xiao Rong xX Xx Zielah xX Xx Zimah xX pictures editted by Azizah Aziz |
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