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aloha!! a quick update...!!!
ok,let's go.. one more day to go...n its HOLIDAYZ!!! yay!! looking frward to it..!!! haha.. however, i still hav to werk..hmm..need to earn!! n i hav to werk my arse off..lol!! goin to get my pay soon!! wehee!!! but i tink.. it will juz last fr few dayz oni i guez..haha..i seldom werk fr this mth...so..im sure the pay will be little.. so..no high xpectation fr tis mth.. =( well..i dunnoe y..im craving fr ice creamz now!!! choc ice cream wif hot fudge...ahhhh!!! i really need it badly!! any flavour will do lar....!! anything wic came frm the word ice cream.. lol!! i want!!!! since my mum bought dat particular choc ice cream..im beginning addicted to ice cream.. the pleasure of eating ice cream was.......hmmmm...indescribable...!! oklar.. im pretty tired now..tmrw's still a skul day fr me..haiz.. gonna end here.. bye!! amigos.. STUPID lar!!!!
im gonna be ALONE at home fr tdae.. no mum.. no dad.. no sisterz dat will alwayz accompany me to sleep.. no nothing!! im left without company!! shit!! all of them will go to my aunt's hse cuz my other aunt who stays at JOHOR came to s'pore yesterday..n she will stay overnight wif them fr a couple of dayz.. i can't followed them...u noe y??? I HAVE TO WORK TMRW!!!! shit lar!! in the morning sumore..haiz..so..i cant b able to meet them..its been soo long since the last i saw dat Johor-aunt of mine..i miz her..n her kids.. i wanna c them!!!!!!!!!!!! all my family will stay overnyte ther..wth!! n one more thing... to b honest.. im nt a brave gerl..haha.. so, noeing dat im the only one at home..really freaks me out!! i dunnoe whether im able to sleep or nt tonite..haiz.. n wen dat happens..all these stupid imaginary thingz ( u noe lah wat i mean) will automatically put me to fear..oh Gosh!!! i want my sis badly tonite!!!! plz dun go!!! im goin to cry u noe!!! haha.. couple of thingz happen unxpectedly to my family n it worries me a LOT!!
sumtimez..i seriously hate to be involve in this kind of situation.. problemz keep coming...having to lead a blissful lyfe is juz a moment..n another moment, problemz struck again...haiz.. its fate..i noe..no matter wat..i hav to accept it.. sometimez i feel lyke giving up..i rilly am!!
the PBL system juz sux to d max!!!! HATE it damn terribly!! sch juz continuing making me stress..n im sick of dis stupid system already.. i still feel lost in most of the modules..even now.. in case u guyz r wondering..is der any of the IT knowledge dat i've learnt so far..absorb to this brain of mine??? well,let me tell u dis..the ans is NO!!! i dunnoe..sumtimes i wonder..is it solely becuz of me?? or becoz of the learning system dat really makes the whole thing juz seems hard fr me .. mayb fr otha polyz, by yr 2..they've already expert enuf in their respective modules..n it will better prepared them fr their working world in the future..cuz they started learning it frm yr 1 lar dat's y... but we, fellow republicans..will hav a rilly hard tyme coping in our modules..it all packly cramped in yr 2 n 3s..haish..yr 1..hah! dun tok bout it..its juz a waste of time fr me..lol! furthermore,the "problems" are getting tougher n tedious every single day..OMG!! i tried to luv sch.. tried to luv my course.. tried to wash away all the negatives attitude dat i hav all this while regarding this learning system in rp.. i tried...but i dun think it work.. i hav to do well in this..i noe i can..i hav to...no matter wat.. juz need some motivationz..dat's all..cuz i'm already feelin discontented abt goin to sch.. argh!!! so anybody out there..r good at advising and motivating ppl...able to set a GOOD example fr me..well,u are xtremely needed!!!! dun worry u r paid..name it any price..no problem fr me..!! hahaha.. crap!! its a SISTERZ NIGHT OUT!!! itz been quite some time since the last i hang out wif my sis,syidah.. since we're both bored..we went out!! i rilly juz wanna go out n hav fun.. went to our fav place..!! esplanade.. and by chance..we also get to see fireworkz!! i was quite surprised at first cuz i rilly unsure where the hell these fireworks came from..haha..later did i noe..there's this "arts festival" dat's goin on starting yesterday until....erm..i dunnoe!! lol as u all noe..this aziz's daughters juz love cameras..n there's nothing dat we cn do except taking picturez..haha..     adding more..juz luvvv taking picz!! despite in the toilet..ahakz..    *snap*snap*snap* (p/s: i realised dat my pipi becoming more n more tebam..haha..hmmm..hav to start cutting dwn on junked fds..) oh ya...b4 goin out wif my sis juz nw..i accompanied my mum to the "MORAL SOCIETY"..n we oso still hav the time to take picz..hahaha.. see hw NICE our faces r...hehe     sumtimez..we luvvv being idiots!! haha.. thnx mum fr tolerating my craziness!! haha...juz sooo freaking bored..dat's y lar.. had a fun day tdae..im gonna sleep now..thnx fr stoping by ppl..im sooo tired!! tata!! tc guyz!! Muackz!! well..
being the eldest in a family is not easy..its rilly not!! showing a good role model to the others..especially our younger ones..sumtimes cn really be a huge responsibility fr me to take.. me, being the eldest not only fr my own family itself..but also the eldest among all my cousins from my dad's side...argh!! i cn feel the stress!! they may tend to expect a lot from us!! way a lot!!! sumtimes i cant even manage myself to stay on dat particular level where they want me to be.. i dunnoe y fr some reason..im alwayz being watched by my family memberz..watever i do..how i present myself towrds them..hw i dress..how i tok..how i live my life as a muslim teenage lady.. all will be observed !! n i may nvr noe..wat they may have tok abt me behind my back.. as a normal person..ya,i will not get away frm mistakes and being a "PERFECT" example to my other younger ones is really difficult fr me to achieve..its rilly hard..if u've gone thru being the eldest..u will sumhow understand wat im toking abt.. hmm..hey..wait a min..!! did i sound like complaining..?? am i?? haha..hmmm..well,its not a complain..but its juz a deep dwn feelings that i hav all this while as an elder sister to my siblingz..n as an eldest cousin to all my cousinz .. i admit, i want to b the best among all..n im trying to be one..but sometimes..as i say...i can't b the "perfect" one as the rest expect me to b.. but nt to get me wrong... i nvr crossed to a limit where all these was a burden fr me..not at all!! nt to dat point..i was born to be the eldest..its already written frm HIM..and so i juz hav to live and accept it.. watever it is..being a gd daughter..making both of my parents happy..and most importantly..nt to do sumthing stupid dat will ruin my family's name..is all i can promise fr now..insyallah.. azizah rilly wants to kill herself!!! i dunnoe wat im doin now..
juz had my dental surgery juz now!! it's soo freaking painful!!! OMG!! i swear i'll nt eat StUpiD stuffs dat will worsen my teeth ever again..!! NO! NO!! i've had enough!!
the plucking out..oh my!! its soo sickening!! the dentist hav to go thru a surgery fr me cuz according to him..its difficult fr him to pluck out my tooth juz like dat cuz my tooth had become worse..so i've to undergo a surgery!! seriously,wen he said dat..i juz wanna get out of dat place n escape!! hahakz!! ya..i cant barely sleep yesterday cuz the toothache struck again!! n i dunnoe fr hw many times i cried ..juz enduring the pain... n thnx to dat.. it makes both of my eyes swollen wen i woke up!! shit! and..eating all those panadols,pain killers, anticeptic oil never helps me at all!! haiz... so i hav no choice this tyme but to juz go to the dentist..i juz cant take it animore!! thank god its all over now!! Phewww!! at last!! my body now feels very weak..dun tell me i will get ill again..!! oh no!! i hope i'll be alright by tmrw..i hav to SKUL !! i wanna hav my rest now..!! "IT TAKES A LIFETIME TO REALLY FORGET SOMEONE WHO U HAVE GROWN TO LOVE"
i guez its indeed true.. oh gosh..2mr is my data commn netwrkng UT..n i havent even started revising it..oh shit!! my brain is juz not functioning..
im now forcing myself to study..seeing all these networking stuffs juz making me mad!! n im now juz asking hard fr my brain to absorb some of it..but hell no!! i ended up juz staring at those ppts..haish!! God!! plz giv me some guidance!! i juz cant take tis module animore..!! learning them further will juz ended me up at the woodbridge!! haha..seriously!! its soo damn tough!! my body r fully exhausted n im super tired now!! my bed n pillow r calling me..!! cn i juz sleep now??! lol!! tdae juz ain't my day!!
it was raining damn heavily in the morning juz now..OMG!! the rain was juz disastrous!! n the wind...oh my!! despite having an umbrella..it never helps me any better..not at all!!! my whole body were all wet from head to toe.. the impact of the wind were sooo strong dat it ALMOST blew my umbrella away..i look lyke a stupid idiot holding an upside dwn umbrella!! lol!! cn imagine?? haha. so retarded!! at the same time it spoiled my innocent umbrella!! wth!!! no choice but to throw it away!! the rain was juzz soo bad..infact i nearly get carried away by the wind..the force was really soo strong!! n it really spoilt my mood to go to skul.. ya lar..wif my whole clothes turn soaking wet!! i cn even squeeze my clothes n the water juz came out exactly similar to dat squeezing of a lime juice!! haha. n my wet hair..haiz..i really look lyke i've juz finished from my bath..haha!! wat a day!!! im in a really gd mood to go to skul in the first place..but all these things juz messed it up!! grrrrr..!!! shit shit shit!!! i juz dunnoe hw to face my claz animore!!! Oh god! oh well....im in claz now..feel so bOReD!!! so..nuthing better to do..take a few minutes bloggin..hehe..
OMG!! tis JAVA thing can make me mad!! n the 'boringness' adds on cuz both niza n fai nvr cum!!! u guyz nvr inform me earlier eh,if nt..i wouldn't be coming!! haha..no lah..if oni i gt the free dayz..im such a stupid fool of skipping claz fr the past 2 weeks..i cn bored to death here!!! n im rilly lost wif all the JAVA commands!!! luckily there's taufiq...!! thnx fr helping me out man juz now!! u're such a pro!! haha.. okok..getting back to werk..!! its 4.13am at my clock..!! n i juz came back frm werk.. n as usual.... feel sooo tired n freaking exhausted..oh gosh!!! i've gt a 9pm-3am shift fr fri n sat..*sheesh*...damn it!! oh well..nvm...at least i gt a slightly higher pay fr working overnight shift..hehe..cuz i really nid a lot lot more $$$ fr this mth.. its rilly a hard tyme i muz say... if we were to skul on weekdayz..n werk on weekends..haish.. btw..im soo worried cuz i havent even START on my PP(professional profiling) fr my skul...and even worst..i havent even think or choose of a company to profile on yet..oh my gosh..i rilly had no idea doin this PP..im so dead!!! n the due date is on 30 may!!! shit!!! i dunnoe when to actually start on it..cuz my schedule (cey..schedule..haha) is rilly packed wif skul n werk offcourse..oh no!!! n one more thing..im soo bloody smart of nt attending the PP briefing the other day... U R SO DAMN CLEVER ZIZAH!!! n dat left me nt knowing anything on hw to even start wif the PP..wth!! mother's day is cuming...!!! i still havent bought anything fr my mum..initially,im thinking of getting her some jewellery stuffz..but too bad..im soo broke ryte now..cant afford to buy dat now..ahakz...hmmm...is there any other alternatives?? let me think.... .... any ideaz guyz?? ermmm....i guez..my perfect gift fr her will be.... a card wif sweet poems n sayings fr her to let her noe dat i really appreciate her soooo much n hw important she is in my life...n hw i cant live without her..!! hw bout dat?? PLUS.... i would not ask her to cook.. to wash the dishes.. to mop n sweep the floor.. to do anything wic is related to cleaning...for dat day.. ALL WILL BE DONE BY HER DAUGHTERS INSTEAD!! wat she will oni do is to shake her legs..doing absolutely... nothing....!! be a queen fr one day mum..!! haha..we'll c bout dat..hehe oh ya..speaking abt mother's day..my sis's guy bought my mum a choc cake juz now..he said it's an advanced mother's day gift frm him n my sis..hw swit of him!!! i rilly didn't expect him to do dat to my mum seriously..haha.. aniwae dat choc cake is rilly rilly niceee i tell u!!! wif choc fudge on top of it..its sooo yummy!!! to him...its so thoughtful of u buying our mum the cake..we appreciate it so much..if u happen to read this...i really wanna say thankiu..!!! so so much!!! ngah...senyap2 ehk korang dua plan..tk nk ajak klg skali..hmph!! haha.. so my last say... HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL MOTHERS,GRANDMOTHERS AND OTHER IMPORTANT LADIES IN THE WORLD!!! THEY R JUZ PRECIOUS N IRREPLACABLE cuz when they die..part of u will also die.. So..be sure to show ur appreciation..tell her u luv and adore her as often as u can..okiez!!! dedication to my mum [haha]: "im really fortunate to hav a mum lyke u..n alwayz remember dat i luv u soo much..more than myself!!!" =))  Some men juz lovee taking advantage!!! Shit man this kind off ppl..!! wat im emphasize on.. in this case is those bunch of gatal,miang n irritating mid 30-40s mly men who's nt aware dat they r oredy OLD!!! n still hav the gutz to be flirty wif young gerlz..Go to hell lah!!
here comes my story... there's this one tyme wen im working few dayz back..n this stupid mly man,in his 40's i guez..juz came up to ma counter n begin to tok to me..asking abt my age lar..my skul..status..n bla bla bla...he continues toking..by telling dat i shud concentrate on werk first..dun think abt marriage lar..WTH!!! i noe lar i dun nid any advices at dat period of tyme lar stupid!!! hahaha... as a sales asst,im trying hard to b friendly to him n rilly shows dat im really "interested" in his story-telling [haha]..even though deep dwn inside,i juz wanna ignore him.. okok..continue... n i was lyke "ya,ya..true.."all the way..juz nodding to watever shit he says..showing my "fake enthusiastic smile" to him...but suddenly..wen he's abt to leave the counter..he juz grab my hand n touch them!!! n he was lyke "keje baik-baik eh" ..the touching part really shocks me damn hell!!!! OMG!!! u noe hw eerie it was wen he touches me??!! Astaghfirullah!! He's a muslim n dun tell me dat he hav nt been taught abt certain rules n restriction dat Islam hav set between a guy n a lady..STUPID DAMN OLD FELLOW!!! irritating busted!! dah lah tua..haha..im ok if he wants to tok..but wen it comes to sumthing lyke tis..it rilly frustrates me n it terribly piss me off dat day.. ya i noe..it's ok to b nice..but noe ur limits lar!!! i rilly hopes dat he wont ever come to the shop again!! if he comes..i will prepare myself wif gloves..hahaha adding more... it's rilly sad seeing all those 'old pkciks' buying beers,wines..haiz..don't they feel ashamed of themselves as a muslim??? i wonder...hmmm... okay......i've do it thrice...and she DARES do it again...!!! wat the bloody hell is wrong wif me???
can sumbody plz juz SCOLD LOUDLY N DIRECTLY at my ears!!! n i definitely nid a tight slap frm sumone.. so dis azizah can WAKE UP!!! hahaha.. gt any idea wat this damn crazy azizah hav juz did??? i've skip claz again!!! OH NO fr goodness sake azizah!!! i dunnoe fr hw long i'll continue slacking lyke this..n this shud not be happening ever again!!! MUST NOT!! see lah..once i did it..i'll have the tendency to do it again..!!! haiz..its rilly similar like a "drug" pill..u'll b addicted!!!..so beware of it..take note guyz!! haha..crapz!! IQAH!!!!!!! last yr..im d one who's 'influencing' u...now..unexpectingly..u sumhow influence me ah..!! bad ah u!! haha..i noe lah..tepuk satu tgn tk akan brbunyi..but i cant help myself to c other ppl cabut"ing" in front of my eyes..!! hahaha..nxt tyme wen u want to PON,do behind or beside my eyes instead..lol!! hmmm..lalalala..im bored!!! haha u noe wat??its such a GREAT feeling afta doin my BIG BUSINESS in the loo juz now...hahaha..been holding on since morning u noe.....hahahaha...eeeeewwwww!!! ok lar..b4 i continue shooting out some stupid n nonsense stuffz..i better stop here fr now.. gonna sleep..!!! *winkz* walao...tdae damn tiring..!! data comm n netwrking lesson was pretty alright....i guez..its much easier than the last week's problem tho but watever it is, still super complicating..
my brain was juz nt functioning in claz juz now..haha..especially wen seeing 'CABLES', 'SWITCHES','HUB' n all the "engineering" kinda stuffs infront of my damn tired eyes..my brain juz got jammed up!! i hate it!! haiz..but wat to do..juz have to endure it...dat's PART of I.T afterall..hmmm.. i really hope time will fly fast..n i really wanna finish skul quickly..n get a diploma straight away..lol.. tmrw werking again..!! argh!! can i ..nt go?? cn i juz giv some shit excuses to my manager so i wont b wrking 2mr..?? can i?? can i??? hahaha.. im so damn tired lar.. dun hav tat extra energy to wake up damn early in d morning 2mr..oh god!! but i need $$$.. oh ya..toking abt money...gt my pay tdae..haiz..i left wif juz few buckz..haiyo!!..all thnx to the fon n internet bills.. n there will b lyke 29 more dayz to go in order fr me to get my nxt pay..OMG!!! i will b financially broke i tell u..i will suffer man !!! haiz..hw i wish i'm a president's daughter where money is nt an important factor...or even a famous hollywood celebrity..or even....ok stop..!! im starting my crapz now!!! haha..dream on azizah!!! think im enuf wif my entry fr tdae..goin to sleep now.. i dun tink i cn get up in time i guez....but i will try my best....if not..i will b dead!!! hahaha.. holla!! here i am again..
itz been lyke 3 dayz since i've posted anything here.. so, i juz wanted to toss a quick post up to let everyone noe..im still alive..!! haha.. n haven't abandoned this poor n precious blog of mine..i try nt to.. i hope.. juz dun hav tyme to update it lar actually..ahakz.. ok..to start it off..i've been slacking terribly this few dayz..i noe!! absent frm skul fr 2 dayz..pluz the labour day hols n the so called "wed-off day" fr me.. so guyz..count fr me..hw many dayz azizah hav been rotting??? TOTAL= 4 dayz!!! hahaha.. i noe i shudn't continue absenting myself frm skul..im afraid i wil b addicted to it!! haha.. yeah..i promise its SOOOO nt goin to happen again!! i made a BIG DAMN mistake fr nt coming to skul..haiz.. oh well, 2mr im coming to skul again..yup2..dis tyme, its fr real n i'm nt bluffing!! hah! so, this "free" dayz of mine r spent wif....erm... nothing actually..lol oh..no..wait!! i DO did sumthing..despite of calling it a labour day fr us..dis poor n innocent azizah hav to work instead..haiz..i've been called out by manager to work bcuz.. shortage of staffs..!! shit man!! thank god it's over now.. nvm..work=$$$...so..im happie bout it..=)) oh yes!! pay day is juz ard the corner..!!! 2 more dayz!! been waiting!!! yay!! and tis tyme,i'll buy ONLY necessary stuffs..n i promise i'll spent it more wisely..!! lol.. the toothache is still ON-OFF-ON-OFF thing perhaps..stupid damn tooth still nt out yet..still stuck in my poor mouth..n unfortunately, still relying on pills..bought a new pain killer..i rilly hope it works n hopefully i'll sleep more peacefully fr today.. OH pain!! plz dun come n disturb me..!! im skuling 2mr..have atleast some mercy towards me..plz!!!! lol.. fr some gd reason..this feeling of mine towards him starting to fade away i guez...at last!! didn't hear any updates frm him fr like ages..n hav nt been literally contacting each other now..argh!! watever!!.. i juz cant b bothered bout him now..hah!! nt trying to b mean..but i think.. he ask fr it..!! Oh no!!! i didn't realise its 12.33am now..!!! n this stupid me still up yet??? oh gosh..oritez!! till here fr now..goin to sleep now!! update it soon..!! |
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Nur Azizah bte Abdul Aziz * 7 Oct 1988; turning 23yrs * am a libra * was a NYP & RP-ian * simple yet complicated * have learnt to appreciate things ard me and nt juz taking it for granted * living my life to its fullest * trying to be a better person in every single day of my life * realise am much stronger now * great besties * fiance * purple.black. * surfing net.shopping.hugs. * makeups.clothes.shoes excites her * liars * bitches * hypocrites * braggers * veggies -_- * backstabbers April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011 July 2011 August 2011 Xx Angela xX Xx Atikah [Icka] xX Xx Ain [sis] xX Xx Ayu xX Xx Ben xX Xx Doreen xX Xx Eileen xX Xx Ekinsan xX Xx Ella [Zul's Cuz] xX Xx Fairuz xX Xx Harith xX Xx Iqah xX Xx Iqah [priv] xX Xx LadyAzVam xX Xx Jaclyn xX Xx Jessie xX Xx Lisza xX Xx Mira [NYP] xX Xx Mira [RP] xX Xx Munir xX Xx Myza xX Xx Natasha xX Xx Nieza xX Xx NuruL Aini xX Xx Raleah xX Xx Salwa xX Xx Santi xX Xx Shaz xX Xx Shidah [cheers] xX Xx Syahidah [BTS] xX Xx Ting Ting xX Xx Wanie xX Xx Wawa xX Xx Xiao Rong xX Xx Zielah xX Xx Zimah xX pictures editted by Azizah Aziz |
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